Invisible (Nash Grier FanFic)

Chapter 8

(Trinity's POV)

    I felt an Adrenalin rush through my body, and with all of my strength i sat up and covered my thighs with my blanket. My breaths got shorter and heavier. No one knew about my dark secret. I didn't how to deal with it if someone did....i finally looked up at Nash, he was frozen and his eyes brimmed with tears.

      "what the hell was that Trinity" he asked in a raspy voice. "it is just old scares."and i dazed off suddenly interested in the carpet on my floor. "Trinity!" Nash yelled screaming in my ears. "What!?" i said with the same amount of volume his voice had.

        "Why do you hurt yourself?" he asked with a softer voice. "why do you cut? are you anorexic to?" he started to ask all different types of questions. "STOP!  do you really expect me to be normal? For me to just love life because my parents hated me? Do you expect me to be okay when every single night i have a dream where my dad tells me to kill  myself over and over again? oh and not to mention that i realized that in the end my parents never loved me and i was just the mistake child!" i then took in a breath and whispered, "All i ever wanted was to be loved and have a normal family." just then herds of tears rushed down my face.  i was in Nashs arms with in a second and i buried my head into his chest and felt warmth and safeness, "Its ok" he said while i felt a tear drop on my cheek. i just nodded, "i hope." the next think i knew i wasn't the only on bawling. "p-please don't ever do that again." he said with his voice cracking. "i haven't for a month." i said then i looked up and stared into his eyes. he nodded "good," the room went quite...then he spoke up again "i am gonna go make you some soup." he smiled, and gently laid me back down. "thank you." he chuckled "alright i will be up in... five minutes." and with that he fled to the kitchen. 

    I was sitting there on the bed smiling like a fool. He didn't run away and say i am emo, then i thought about it. Just because i cut dosent mean i hate the world it means i hate myself. I then sighed out loud at my thoughts. I always wanted to see what it would be like to escape, but that would mean i would lose the fight, and although i don't have much to live for. I feel like i have to live for Nash. I couldn't leave him even if i tried. i was snapped out of my thoughts when Nash ran in through the door. "so here is some soup!" he put the soup on the night stand and helped me up then placed on my lap. "so are your ribs hurting anymore?" he asked while sitting on the edge of the  bed right by me. "no, it feels like i just did Major ab work outs." he laughed, "well thats a good sign." then i went to eating my soup.  then i remembered i forgot to say something to Nash. "hey um thanks for helping me...you are actually not a big nerd and now i think every one can see that..." he chuckled.  "ya, well really at the end of the day, it dosent matter what they think, its how i see myself." he then looked down at my hand which was holding the blanket over my thigh. and looked back up and my face. "are you done eating?" "yup" i said back. he then gulped. "ok well, i need to um...take care of the bruises and cuts that chad caused...on your legs" after he said that my body tensed a little bit. "ok" i said hesitantly. he then took the bowl of soup from my hands and gently pulled back the covers on  my thighs.

(Nash's POV)

i pulled back the blankets to only see her scars and her bruises once again. my eyes Began to water but i held the tears back. i had to stay strong for Trinity. "Ok i am going to wrap your thighs." i then looked up into her eyes. all i saw was pain and worry as i brought out the medical tape. i started to wrap but she winced. i stopped "hey, it gonna be ok " i said. she nodded. but her tears said otherwise. i just started to wrap once again..........i was almost done. "alright. your good" i said as i looked up at her tear stained face. "thanks." she said with a weak voice. "your welcome, hey its already 10:00 so i need to get back home soon..." i said, she nodded, "but before you go do you mind helping me change into my Pj's.." her face went red. "of course, which drawer?"  i asked. " third one." she said. i then walked over and got her long pajama pants and a shirt. "ok um can you sit up by your self?" i asked. "i can try" then she lifted her self up, but i could see it was a challenge for her. "ok good umm" she giggled. "its ok" she knew what i was hinting at. i then slowly took off her shirt and put it on her without trying to look. i then slid on the pants. "better?" i asked. "much better." she said with a smile, i then laid her back down and tucked her in, also i turned off the lamp. i bent down and kissed her on the fore head. "goodnight Trin." i whispered against her forehead. "goodnight Nash" she said with her breath hitting my neck, making shivers go down my spine. 

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I was already home, and i was laying down in the dark, but all the sudden i started crying....in pain, but not for me for Trin.....for Trin's pain.

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Hi! sorry it took so long to update! i have been so busy, and i am sorry if this chapter is not very good. i tried to write it in a hurry, because i didn't want to keep you waiting any longer ~ Mackenzie ( Also PLEASE do not think cutting is an option , this is just put in the story to make a more dramatic effect, PLEASE do not try it for your self. if you need any help feel free to kik me at itsmatthewespinosa4life or DM me on my instgram which is @_matthew_espinosa_4life )