{11:10 pm}
i'm breaking.
i need you and you aren't here,
your with her instead.
i'm crying and screaming and going out of my mind thinking about you.
constantly on my mind and if this silence doesn't break, i will.
i need this silence to end.
it's hurting me like a bullet to the head.
it's unbearable and i can't take it anymore.
i don't know how to talk to you without choking up or falling all over again.
i can't shut my feelings off and i definitely can't shut my mind off.
24/7 it's racing nonstop.
and i just need a break,
just one second to breathe.
no weight on my shoulders.
no pit in my stomach.
no pain in my heart.
no migraine in my head.
j u s t
a
b r e a k .
