Ellie Gilbert (a TVD fan fic)

The meaning of love

* Did anyone see that amazing kiss between delena OMFG! ok guys your in for a treat. You guys are extremely lucky because I'm giving you another chapter so soon after the 18th. Well I hope you've all enjoyed, I'm amazed that I have over 1,000 reads! But not a lot of comments I have some exceptions from the awesome fans who comment on almost every chapter. Anyway enough of my ranting here's chapter 19!*

Ellie's P.O.V-

I woke up in my tank top and underwear in a warm bed. I thought for a minute then remembered everything.

I hade done the dead with Damon...

Although last night was amazing

It will never ever happen again. I hope

I just pray I can be unlike those blondes in the movies who try to escape when they sleep with their best friend at some party.

I just wanna have a one night stand and forget everything that happened last night with Damon.

I silently slid from under Damon and tiptoed to the bathroom to check for a hairbrush I left.

"where are you going?" Damon asked sitting up looking at me pleading.

I sighed lightly "this can't happen again Damon I'm sorry but I just can't" I said grabbing shorts from the floor and slipping them on my thighs to my waist.

"how can you even say that knowing you loved every second of it?" Damon asked annoyed

"because it's not right it's not fair. I don't deserve this type of life." I said blinking away tears.

"I promise no more cheating or lying to you. I'm whipped to you Ellie. I've been siting here taking a month long beat and now I'm not taking no for an answer." he spoke getting up even though he was completely butt naked.

"no go put some clothes on and just stop" I said slipping on my black vans.

He pinned me to the wall looking at me pleadingly before I pushed him off walked down stairs and grabbed some coffee.

Everyone was already downstairs talking among themselves.

"so you and Damon..." Elena trailed giggling and smiling winking at me.

I shrugged "there is no me Me and Damon."

She looked shocked.

"but last night didn't you-" I cut her off.

"mistake. Complete mistake a one nighter"I whispered.

"you know you don't mean that Ellie your just hurt" she sympathized

"good bye Elena." I said finishing my mug

"where are you going?" Caroline butted in.

"well its Friday and since I've skipped school all week I'm actually gonna go and then I'm going to The Grill for drinks with Mrs.Lockwood." I said

"why aren't you hanging with us today?" Jeremy asked

"because it's to hard and the only way I can keep myself from losing all of my humanity is to keep myself busy." I said with a fake smile.

"we can keep you busy Ellie-" I cut Bonnie off.

"no away from all of you. I can't do this." I said tearing up for the millionth time. I turned for the door but remembered my phone up stairs.

"Stefan can you get my phone out of his room" I pleaded.

He smirked "nope sorry guess your gonna have to go get it"