Ellie Gilbert (a TVD fan fic)

Painful Memory

  Damon's P.O.V-

Ellie was scaring the living...un-dead out of me. She kept talking about pain and how hurt she was that Jenna made her life a living hell. How she missed her parent, was a brief druggie faze. She was about to drop a bombshell I could see it. I hadn't known her long but I wanted to protect her from.....herself

Ellie's P.O.V-

I shrugged the memory's back into my head I couldn't do this right now. But I knew I had to tell them or I'd go off the deep end. That ever powering feeling came back and I lost control.

"I wandered off to Wickery Bridge and looked over the edge. I swore I saw them at the bottom telling me to jump it would only hurt for a second. I'd be in a better place and all of the pain would just......go away!"

My heart beat started to increase because this was the hardest things I'd ever have to say.

"Just don’t judge me when I tell you." Jenna nodded at me to continue as tears streamed her face

"So I was almost there about to jump when my life flashed before me and told me this wasn't the way. I needed to live so I just walked home into my room. I found another way to ease the pain." I looked at Damon's face he looked so sad and worried

"I started hurting myself, cutting." Elena gasped and spoke finally

"Where show, me where?" I lifted the back of my shirt up and pointed near my hip bone.

"I've been doing it for months, every time I'm sad or lonely or I feel pain this shuts it off." I looked at their faces and just cried.

"I’m sorry that I'm so messed up but I can't help it.....and I'm not gonna stop doing it either. It’s better than dying." Elena looked at me coldly.

"Are you mad Ellie there's no way you’re gonna keep hurting your body like this. No way I'm gonna help you so you don't feel this way anymore."

"You can't help me Elena it's to little to late. I'm damaged ok"

Jenna ran down the stairs after muttering how sorry she was for hurting me and causing a part of this. I just wished I hadn't told them now they would all be on suicide watch and cutting patrol.

I shrugged out of Elena's grip and stood up. "Damon can we go now, I have to get out of here." Elena looked up from her spot on of the floor.

"What, Ellie you need to stay here so we can look after you. Now that I know I'm gonna protect you from everything I can."

"Elena the only one who can save me is me. And I just don't know how to move on from their deaths....I just don't." It was true without them I was lost.

"And anyway me and Damon had a deal. One month starting today. Let’s go home Damon." He smiled sheepishly at me and took my hand.

"Wait I'm gonna go pack a bag that will last me a while." I quickly packed

From the bathroom I could hear Elena trying to whisper but it came off a little loud "she's young Damon and you heard what she did your putting her in danger!" I gathered my things and slumped them in the bag.

"You know what Elena there's obviously a reason she doesn’t wanna stay here besides the bet. She doesn’t like it here you and Jenna put too much pressure on her!"

It killed me to hear them saying that stuff. I looked at the razor and put it in the bottom of the bag.

"Will you two stop fighting your giving me a headache? Gheesh!" Damon grabbed my hand and just like that we were off to the boarding house. We arrived in a minute.