save me. :: bellamy blake [1]

chapter twelve

Song - Lay Me Down - Sam Smith & John Legend

(I kinda made a rlly depressing youtube video of majority of the crying scenes in the 100 entire series.)

I think I might cut this book short, Idk. I might make a sequel or just an epilogue explaining everything else..

anyway there is no note at the end.

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"Always getting into some kind of trouble, right?" Octavia marched up to Bellamy. His eyebrows furrowed in confusion, even though he knew what she was talking about, well sort of.

"Look, I don't know what Bailey told you bu-"

"Bailey, didn't tell me anything because she wasn't here," The younger Blake was subtly interrogating her older brother, "You screwed up, and I know you did, so tell me what did you say?" Octavia's body language was tense and showed her angry state. Bellamy however chose to ignore his sisters initial question and went with his own.

"Wait- wait, rewind- back up and stop! Were did she go?" He looked frustrated on the outside but on the inside all he was just upset at himself. What if she ran off and didn't come back? It would all be his fault.

"I don't know, she still hasn't come back." Octavia grumbled and Bellamy's eyes widened in horror, becoming glassy in the process. 

"You- you mean she's out there by herself?" He croaked and Octavia couldn't help but feel sorry for him. My little one is all alone? Dead? 

"Well I assumed she was with Finn, Clarke and Myles.." Octavia's expression then matched her brothers. "Shit." She cursed, "They left before her, didn't they?" The young girl squeezed her eyes shut shaking her head as tears ran down her dirty cheeks. 

"No, no she- she couldn't be dead right?" Bellamy's words were shaky, he never thought it would come to the point where he would lose her. He would never get the chance to tell her his feelings. his feelings for her, "Raven- Raven's bomb should have held the grounders off. We have to find her before they do." Bellamy tried to make himself and octavia, kind of, feel better by using excuses, 

"Meet me at the gate I need to find her," The freckled boy was so panicked, he almost had forgotten about his protectiveness over Octavia. He was in love with the tanned girl and he couldn't help it.

"Bell, I- I don't think we should go now," Octavia whispered and Bellamy's jaw slightly dropped in fury, "You know the grounders could be attacking at any point, We don't even know if she's okay, I-"

"I need to know she's okay. I need to know that she didn't die because of my selfishness, okay?" His voice cut off Octavia's, harsh and strict.

"We don't have Clarke back and we can't afford any more injuries."