Thuggin' Like My Daddy.

Quittin' Like My Daddy.

"Then stop playing it," Jodi licked his lips making me stare at his lips.

"It isn't that easy. Like this girl has seen me, the real me. At my highest and lowest points. Plus she gives bomb ass head."

"Girls give head," Munroe sounded confused.

"Its what lesbians say about other lesbians eating out the putty."

"Oh," Maleek said.

"Yeah."

"You don't seem like them grimy dyke bitches or like them hermaphrodites who we be seeing? So why you like girls." Roni's ignorant ass said.

"That's because I'm not a dyke or a hermaphrodite I have a vagina. I like vaginas and I like dicks it isn't that hard to comprehend."

Roni continued to put his foot in his mouth, "Why do you like girls you should like boys."

"Its how I am. I can't change it. First thing I learned was how to cop bitches, I didn't grow up in a place where liking girls was wrong my momma never made that separation for me. I didn't know that I was supposed to like guys. I haven't even really liked guys until highschool tenth grade. So if your gonna lecture me save it. I did church camp, got lectured by a predator hiding in a priest costume and I even got humiliated. So I stopped with religion and found myself. I'm still a Christian I used to be a Catholic but my bisexuality doesn't sit well with them so I just relaxed on religion and did what I had to."

I shut Roni up. I turned around and matched eyes with Jodi. I ignored the weird feeling in my gut and walked upstairs.

DeAndre looked at me, "Hey do y'all got a gym?" I need to work out 'cause I was slackin' and I didn't like it.

"No baby girl I don't."

"Damn." I grabbed my phone, "Aye Toni you mind if I come over? Nah we don't have to but if you wanna. Nah she fucked up. Please. I'm forreal, stop playing. I need you."

"Who's Toni," Roni asked.

"a Friend." They looked at me waiting for more background information. I just looked at them."Damn y'all want the whole story."

"Hell yeah," Munroe smiled.

"Well I've been honest with y'all so far I might as well continue. Toni is my fuck. Like every time I get tired of Aliana. I go fuck with Toni. Toni put her emotions in it and says she loves me, but I'm not about all that. I never say it back and she gets mad and then we fuck, she screams my name yadda yadda. Its all just cycles."

"Mhm by cycles and yadda yadda she means she goes for cudi," Roni said. He's getting annoying he's fine asf but he needs to shut the fuck up. Seriously gorgeous face but total asshole personality.

I inhaled and exhaled slowly.

This pain.

This pain was love.

×Jodi's POV×

The lyrics to What If I Kissed You by Drake played in my mind.

What if I kissed you right now. How would we explain it? Trying to imagine how it might sound if I just yell out. What if I kissed you right now? Would it bring us any closer? Take the weight off of our shoulders. Take me I'm yours and I don't really care who knows it. Can we afford to it open with all of these emotions . If we were a secret how long could you keep it. Keep it to yourself don't tell nobody else.

"DeAndre said we are going to the spot. He said you'd have to watch Naomi while we are gone." I watched them leave out. I looked at Roni and just shook my head.