Alpha's Mate (boyxboy) ✔

Alone

It had been a few months now since I'd last saw Cole, and my body was getting weak. Somehow, I could feel when he was around me because after all, as a mated couple, we couldn't be completely separated or else we would die. People only allowed him to see me, but they didn't allow me to see him --- and everytime he came, the guard would give me a dose of sleeping pills or blinded my eyes with dark material and hands chained together behind me.

Honestly, it hurts. That feeling when you know someone you love was around but you couldn't do anything to keep in contact with them was like the biggest torture I'd ever went through. I'd often begged the guard to just let me see him once, but of course, they didn't comply. They ignored me and punched me until I passed out --- only to wake up in the morning feeling completely lonely and alone as they took me out for another session of torture until my body completely worn out. 

"Dinner time!" the guard said as he slipped my meal inside. I looked at the food with hunger, and as fast as a lightning bolt, I took the food into my lap and munch it like a pig. The guard then smirked as he watched me silently. "...heh, fucking disgusting..." he said. I glanced at him sharply and I chose to ignore him instead. "...anyway, sorry for not giving you your lunch today. Kinda forgot".

I silently chewed my food, completely knew that he wasn't just accidentally forgot. He did it on purpose because he enjoyed watching me suffered. I remembered I was even shouting at him to give me my lunch today when he walked past me, but he ignored me, as if I wasn't even there in the first place.

"...pathetic..." I heard him said again. Then, after observing me for a few minutes, he nonchalantly walked away.

I'd finished my dinner faster than I'd used to before. It maybe because I was too hungry. The torture today was completely draining my energy out, and what was left was the little bits of hope to survive. Then, as I leaned my fully wounded back against the cold wall; I let out a sharp hiss. The wounds from a few days ago weren't even perfectly healed, but they already made hundred of new ones. My healing ability also, was getting weaker every single time. I didn't know why though, but maybe, was it because I needed Cole by my side? Perhaps.

Looking at my fingers, I then started to count. One, two three, and so on. I was too lonely and tired that I felt like I had lost somewhere in hell, and the sound of dripping water from the leaking sink anyway, was the only thing that brought me back into reality.

I sighed heavily.

The hallway was dark. No sound could be hear anymore, which probably meant all of the guards and other prisoners had already went to sleep. However, despite my body was yelling at me to just take a deep sleep --- my mind refused. My mind always wandered to somewhere, where Cole was inside it, as tears flowing down my cheeks. I still remembered his pretty eyes, pink lips, hairs, soft skin and everything about him were making my heart aching. I really, really missed him but, what could I do? Obviously, nothing.

Then, slowly, I lied down on the cold floor and I used my hand as a pillow.

As I stared at the darkness, I could hear my stomach still growling, faintly. I chuckled to myself, but just for a few seconds before it suddenly changed into soft cries. I covered my mouth with my hand, my body was trembling due to the cold sensation of the floor, as my mind suddenly brought me back to the beautiful memories where I still had Cole by my side.

"I'm sorry..." I cried out. My voice cracked as I pathetically added; "...I'm really, really sorry for everything I'd done, Cole. I'm sorry for killing our baby. I'm sorry for putting you in a living hell. I'm so sorry".

And honestly though, I felt like crazy. I missed him so much, and the only things that could erase the painful feeling away was by remembering our times together. I had no picture to see, no other belongings of his to hug to sleep, no anything. The memories anyway, were the only thing that keep me sane.

Then, as I kept crying; soft footsteps which were making it way towards me could be heard in the hallway.

"What's wrong?" a voice asked. I saw the outline of his shadow, and I immediately knew that it was Tyrese. "...I heard you were crying from distance. What's wrong?".

I was silent. I slowly sat up and looked at him --- the light was now switched on --- making a few other prisoners grunted in annoyance since the light was disturbing their goodnight sleep.

"It's nothing. I just..." I paused. I sighed heavily, the tears were threatened to fall down again. Quickly, I wiped them away, only to notice that Tyrese was now staring at me with sympathy in his eyes. And to be honest, I hated it when I looked so vulnerable in front of someone but, really, I couldn't help it. The feelings were just too much and I couldn't handle it anymore. I took a deep breath before I added, with slightly shaky voice; "...I just miss my mate".

Tyrese nodded lightly. I heard him softly sighed.

"He too..." he said.

"Who?" I asked confusedly.

"Your mate..." Tyrese answered. A minute past by as he added again; "...everyday, every time he comes, he would beg me to just let him to touch you, to be with you, but, you know, I couldn't simply disobey to your father's words..." he paused. "...he even told me that he'll work as my servant for free if I just let him to be with you..." then he softly chuckled. I smiled too upon hearing that, feeling absolutely blessed that Cole was as faithful as me still. I felt slightly better when Tyrese told me this anyway. "...but, of course I don't agree. What the fuck is wrong with me if I'm agree? I meant, he's the Alpha's mate, the former Alpha's in law and the carrier of the Alpha's bloodline. I'm digging my own grave if I ever treat him that way though. Seriously".

I laughed. It was a faint one anyway, but still, it's a laugh.

"What happens if he's not then? Will you agree?" I asked.

Tyrese was silent. I stared at him, now feeling stupid for asking him that. I sounded like I'd been looking down at him, making it sounds like he was the one who likes to take advantage of other as long as that person wasn't related to anyone in the higher position.

Then, clearing my throat, I added again; "I'm so sorry for---".

"I'll help you..." he suddenly interjected. I looked at him confusedly. Then, after looking around, he lowered his voice down and gestured for me to come closer --- which I quickly obeyed. "...midnight, when everybody was sleeping. I'll sneak your mate inside".

I blinked. For an obvious reason, I felt like jumping happily in the air.

"Seriously?".

"Yeah..." Tyrese confirmed. I smiled widely, another droplet of tear felt down my cheek. "...make sure you stay awake tomorrow".

I eagerly nodded. Tyrese smiled as he patted my shoulder.

"...see you tomorrow then".

"Yeah, thank you so much".

Tyrese didn't say anything as he just smiled widely and walked away --- the excited pounding in my chest was making me awake until the next morning.