Alpha's Mate (boyxboy) ✔

A Death Wish

I was confused. I was curiously staring at the man standing before me with a deep frown on my face —— my mouth was tightly shut —— and so was he. It's actually the first time he'd ever come to me like this, and it definitely built a thousand different questions in my head.

"Hello, erm, Henry..." I greeted. Despite we were cousins; we'd never actually talk with each other. Sure, maybe in some occasional events like family's gathering and sort but, never in private like this. The day when Henry would ever stand in front the door of my house was something I'd never expect to happen anyway. Well, up until now. What's his problem? I don't know. "...do you want to come in?" I then offered awkwardly. I seriously wanted him to just say whatever the fuck he wanted to say so he could go and leave Cole and I alone but, I wanted to act nice. He was, after all, a cousin. Our fathers are siblings. Last thing I wanted to know was when my dad beats me up just because I was being rude to his dear nephew whom I'd never bother to care about, and of course, I never want that to happen. "...I—I'll prepare some ——".

"No, that's fine. I just want to stay for a brief seconds. If you don't mind..." he quickly cut off. I slightly jutted my lips and lightly nodded. Well, if that what he wanted, I don't care then.

"Sure thing..." I agreed. Then, I briefly looked behind me, only to find out that Cole had already went back into the kitchen. "...so, what is it?" I asked.

He cleared his throat.

"Close the door first. I don't want anybody else but you to know what I am going to say. Please..." he said, and it was making me frowned a little bit deeper. Man, he sure was a very secretive person. But still, despite I was a bit hesitated, I still do it nonetheless. If anything, I could tell Cole about this later. Not a problem.

"So, what is it?" I asked for the second time as soon as the door clicked shut. I stared deeply at his face —— his seemingly troubled looking face —— as he stood in front of me a few feet away.

For the first few minutes, Henry was silent. His pair of dull eyes felt like they were piercing right into my soul, but it wasn't anything felt intimidating. In fact, it was the complete opposite.

"Listen, Kyle..." he paused. He then looked down at his feet for a brief second before he looked up at me again and continued, in a bit lighter voice; "...I want you to kill Mia".

I furrowed my brows.

"But, why? She's your mate, isn't it? If I kill her, you'll ——".

"I don't care. I want you to kill her. That's it..." he interjected. Completely different than before, his voice had turned a bit harsher and stronger this time —— almost threatening, piercing and deep. Like, as if he really wanted me to kill Mia. "...I can't live like this anymore, you know? That hoe has been a really pain in the ass for the past few months. And plus, we don't even love each other. She still likes you, and I still have faith with the girl I've been dreaming to be with back in the city. And that baby? It is a mistake. The night when we'd finally mated; we were completely unconscious at that time. We don't even have a clue what the fuck is going on, and we would do anything as long as our wolves shut the hell up —— even mating —— even though we actually don't want it to happen. Things went to fast, you know? And now that ——"

"Hold up!" I said as I pinched the bridge of my nose. "...how about the baby?" I asked. I wouldn't have any problem to kill Mia even though her father would hate me for that but... "...how about the baby?" I asked.

Henry nibbled the inside of his cheek. He seemed indecisive, confused, sad and stressed out. What was playing in that head of his? I don't know. I wasn't sure.

"Kill it too".

My eyes turned wide.

"What?!".

Then, small beads of tear started to fall down through his cheeks.

"J—just kill it. I don't care. I can't deal with this anymore. I don't want that baby. It is a mistake. Both of us never want it. Both of us never fucking want it. That baby is a mistake. It's a mistake..." he kept repeating. However, despite he kept saying that stuff, one thing I knew for sure was the fact that; he actually really didn't mean it. He didn't mean it at all. I'm pretty sure about it. "...p—plus, I—I don't want that baby to grow up knowing that it's a mistake, without parents and, a—and feeling worthless. That's all. That's all..." he said. His voice was drowned in his loud sobs, and for a second, I'm not sure whether I should offer him a comforting hug though because, well...that's so gay. I don't mind acting so gay with Cole though but, this was Henry I'm talking about. No way in hell I would pull him into a hug.

Then, after letting out a very loud sigh, I replied; "Let me think about this again, okay? I can't make a decision when you're pressuring me like this". Plus, I don't want to decide thing just to make one person happy —— which was Henry. I had to think about the aftermath, the consequences of a certain decision, how much it would affect me and people around me and all. "...please, give me some space".

He bitted his bottom lip —— looking doubtful to leave —— but he nodded his head nonetheless.

"Okay..." he answered. "...but please, Kyle. Just this once. Listen to me, okay? Think about what she'd done to you and your family, not only the past, but in the future too. T—think abo——".

"Okay, Henry. Yes, I know that. Thank you for reminding me..." I quickly cut off. Why he sounded so desperately anyway? Is he that eager to die? "...I need to think this through again. Just give me some space. You will know..." I said. "...understood?".

He lightly nodded.

"...good..." I huffed. Then, as if it was on a cue, the door behind me suddenly opened.

"Oh, Henry..." Cole said happily as soon as he popped his head out through the small opening of the door. Henry only greeted him back with a soft nod of his head though, and judging by his expression, I could say that he was pretty embarassed to be found with a tear—stained face by a stranger.

"Anyway, I think you should go now, Henry..." I demanded.

"Oh, why?" Cole asked confusedly. "...why don't you come——".

"No, it's fine..." Henry declined as he smiled warmly. Cole's shoulder then slumped in pure disappointment due to the rejection, and trying not to let my jealousy looking that obvious; I then quickly wrapped my arm around his slim waist and pulled him gently towards me. "...I have other things to do. Thank you though".

"Oh".

"See you again, Henry..." I said awkwardly.

"Yeah".

Then, after giving the both of us another warm small smile, he turned around and leave.