Dark 2- Louis Tomlinson

Chapter 5

Louis' Point Of View

I sat in my chair at the empty table, my eyes locked on Amanda, Sam, and three other boys I didn't know. I continued to stir the untouched coffee in front of me as I felt tears prick my eyes. Just watching her was torture, I just wanted to touch her, hug her, kiss her, tell her how much I love her but she left me and there was nothing I could do to get her back, it was her decision to leave and I couldn't make her change her mind. I felt a single tear roll down my cheek once she picked her head up, her eyes locking with mine. I stared at her for a moment before I wiped my eyes, getting rid of the tears. I stood up from the table and dug into my pocket, dropping a few dollars on the table to pay for the coffee before I left the café, walking out into the pouring rain.

I pulled the hood of my black sweatshirt over my head in an attempt to stay dry and keep the heavy drops of rain off of my skin. I didn't know where I was going, I didn't feel like going back to the apartment I was staying at. When Amanda's dad told me she didn't want to see me anymore I had gone and rented out an apartment from the only apartment building in the town. The whole building was dirty, disgusting, old, and messy but there was nowhere else for me to go. I shoved my hands into the front pockets of my jeans as I walked down the almost empty street. I was actually glad it was raining because the rain drops mixed with my tears making it so nobody could tell I was crying, they just thought it was drops of rain on my cheeks.

I took a deep breath, breathing in the wet air around me, the scent of new flowers poking up through the dirt enveloped me as I walked. All along the roads were pretty flowers in shades of blues, pinks, purples, reds, and yellows, making the town seem much much happier than it was. I didn't know if it was the rain, the fact that I was heartbroken, or the fact that nothing exciting has happened here that made the town seem so dull and in a way sort of upsetting. When Amanda first mentioned Delaware to me I imagined big fields, happy neighbors, giggling kids, and smiles everywhere you looked but what I got was almost the complete opposite. It could just seem bad because of the broken heart inside my chest or the heavy rain beating down on me but whatever it was that made it seem bad to me was doing a good ass job of making me upset.

I was a bit surprised when the rain suddenly stopped, the roads flooding with people almost instantly - by flooding I mean about ten people exited stores to walk on the streets, that was the most I've seen at one time since I arrived though. I saw couples holding hands, smiling, and laughing as they walked down the wet sidewalks happily which made me long for Amanda even more than before. I wish I could reach out to my left or right and her hand would be right there ready for me to hold like it used to be. I wish I could see her smile and hear her laugh, knowing that I was the cause of her happiness but I don't think that will happen again, ever.

I remember last night after I got the apartment I just laid in the uncomfortable and cold bed in the room I rented. I just stared at the ceiling, trying to figure out what made Amanda leave me so quickly. We were so happy, so in love -I was even going to propose to her again, but the ring is now sitting on the bedside table in the apartment still inside the velvet box- but apparently that was all an act. I knew I wasn't the perfect boyfriend and I never would be, I knew I didn't deserve her, I guess I just honestly didn't think she would ever really leave me. I sort of always thought that it might happen in the back of my mind, I just never expected her to actually leave me. It hurt to know she couldn't even say it to my face, she had to have her dad tell me for her. It was bad enough I had fallen head over heels for this girl but knowing she couldn't even break up with me face-to-face made my heart ache.

A sigh rolled out from my lips as I squinted against the bright sun that sat in the horizon off in the distance. The tears had stopped rolling down my cheeks by now but I knew my eyes were puffy and red from crying, I really didn't care though. I wanted to leave Delaware, go back home to see Harry and Niall who I'd grown really close with once we actually started to get along with each other. I would leave right now but I don't have enough money for a plane ticket and there doesn't seem to be any decent job openings around here unless I want to work at McDonalds flipping hamburgers that aren't even made with real meat.

I ran a hand through my hair, pushing my now wet hood off of my head as I entered one of the small grocery stores in town. I walked down the aisles, my hands still shoved into my front pockets as I scanned the shelves for something. I wasn't sure what I wanted but I just craved some sort of sweet candy, sour would be fine too I suppose. A small sigh escaped my lips as I finally reached the candy section of the store, my eyes running over all of the candies that sat in front of me. I reached out and plucked a small bag of 'fun sized' snickers off the shelf. I made my way back to the front of the store, my mind randomly flooding with memories of Amanda as I walked. I paid for the bag of candy, not really paying attention to what the cashier was saying, I think she was telling me a story about her brother or something. I thanked the cashier quickly before walking away, cutting off whatever it was she was trying to tell me.

I returned to the streets, swinging the plastic bag of snickers around slightly. The streets were quiet, barely anybody else was on them and the few people that were outside weren't talking, they were just minding their own business. Considering it was so quiet it wasn't hard to hear somebody yell my name and their footsteps grow louder as they approached me. I spun around to see Sam running over to me.

"Sammy-," I started but he stuck his hand in my face to stop me.

"Don't call me Sammy, only Amanda can call me that," he said, returning his hand to his side. "I have to tell you something. Amanda didn't leave you just like I know you didn't leave her. Her dad doesn't like you for reasons I don't understand so he told you that she left you and then told her that you left her. I know it's confusing and dumb but you have to trust me, it was his way of breaking the two of you apart without having Amanda hate him," Sam said.

"Even if you are right, what can I do? The second her dad sees the two of us together he's just going to tear us apart again," I mumbled, my eyes fixed on Sam as he thought.

"I've got an idea," he said, a smile growing on his face as he began walking down the sidewalk with me, telling me his plan.

I'm so sick right now, I feel so disgusting >.< I've never been this sick and I hope I never have to feel like this ever again.

Anyways, I wanted to apologize for such a long wait, I don't know why it took me so long to update. I guess it was a mixture of having writers block, too much homework, and state testing. I love you all, stay beautiful xx