Fanaa - Destroyed in Love - A Swasan FF

20# Mended

You can lie all alone in the dark; You can run from the one you need

You can run from the memories :But you can't run away from your heart**

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"He's Fine .. He's absolutely fine .. Sanskaar ko kuch nahi hua" Swara paced restlessly in her room trying to calm her panic stricken heart. Did she hear him? Was it her imagination? ...No.. He called her .. she heard him.

The weather outside was equally torrential as her mind. The sky roared with ear splitting thunders and heavy splash of rain."Itni bechaini kyu ho rahi hain mujhe" Swara questioned herself .This premonition of something going wrong..."jaise Sanskaar ko ...she paused .."nahi ..main bhi kya ... Kuch nahi ho sakta usse...Kuch Nahi .." she convinced herself and slowly made way to kitchen to grab a glass of water.

Miles away from her

Lying on floor with empty bottle in one hand and Swara' s photograph in other hand he murmured.

Swa...ra...aaa

The wind chimes in balcony swung back and forth furiously grabbing her attention

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Swa...ra...aaa

And she heard him ...Again .The glass dropped from her hands shattering into pieces as her heart dipped further.Not giving a second thought she reached for her phone and dialed his number .. She had to hear his voice for once ..just once to make sure he is fine. No rules are being broken here .Just a Hello from him would do ..

No response. Tensed she dialed again.

He heard dim sound...a ring which reached his ears faintly but he was in no position to get up and he didn't want to ..he liked being like this ,sinking down more into abyss ,where he could hear and feel nothing..nothing at all.

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Swara settled on couch after number of unsuccessful attempts to reach him. Annapurna aunty's voice over phone as she called Landline, her words unsettled Swara further. "Nahi pata kaha hain woh ..kab aata hain kab jaata hain, kab hosh main rehta ..kab nashe main jhoonjta rehta hain kuch nahi pata aur ye sab .."

She didn't have to complete the rest of words ..because of her. Swara held back her tears as call got disconnected.

All these days had been tormenting trying get back life into terms. Breaking the heart you reside comes with its consequences ..doesn't it ? He never called her back ..no message.. no glimpse of him just like she had asked him nope.. forced him, she corrected herself , using his love as pawn against him and he did ..just because he loved her.

"Shouldn't you be happy Swara .. this is what you wanted, Right!?" her inner voice had been mocking her all these days

Right!She had been trying to convince herself ..all she did was for his well being to save him from pain ..but today her every instinct screamed wrong. The wind chimes swung again bringing back a memory

"Waise Swara ..ye itne saare wind chimes..Tumhe pasand hain kya ?" he questioned sipping his coffee ..

"Ye?" She said swinging one of them, "I just love them .I can just listen to them for hours and hours ..They are calming and soothing and kabhi kabhi .. I feel like...They play the music of one's heart...jo tum sun na chahte ho aur ye hawa kahi se dil ki baatein tumhe suna rahi hain. "

Music of One's heart .. Calming and soothing but today, they sounded agitated and pained , every sound of them as they clanked against each other.