The Dragon Empress (Un-edited ver)

Part 17

(Hey guys! I just wanted to let you guys know, this part is a little dark... so if you want to skip that is fine.) 

I was in my dressing room, putting away all the things that I had browed for the show, when Len walked in, "You sounded great!" he told me, "thank you!" "you know, I think you're pretty cute." I thought nothing of this comment because I was sure he sang with a lot of other girls and gave them compliments like this one, but I did say thank you, "I mean it, I think you are adorable," "Thank you, Len." he made me stand on my feet, and twirled me around, "L-Len, pl-" I was interrupted, Len had his lips on mine, he had me up against a wall, and he held my hands, making sure that I would not try to push him off. "Madeline you sou-" It was Ryuga, I looked at him, and tears welled in my eyes, the look on Ryuga's face was purely heartbroken, I kicked Len, getting him off me, "Ryuga!" "Madeline how-how could you?" "Ryuga he kissed me! It was not me I promise!" "Right." He walked out, "Ryuga! Please wait!" I begged. "No Madeline, whatever we were is OVER!" "Ryuga! Please!" "Madeline, NO," he walked back up to me, "Was all that you said to me fake?" "No! I love you Ryuga please I am still your Dragon empress!" "NO! You are not my 'dragon empress' whatever that was. I hate you!" he stormed away, in that moment, my heart shattered into a million pieces. "Len!" I went up to him and slapped his face, tears were streaming down my face, I walked out, and went and looked for Madoka and the others, I found them, "Guys!" I cried, "Madeline go away, we heard what you did." "I didn't do anything, it was Len who kissed me!" "Well even if that was true, you broke Ryuga's heart!" "I-I" I fell onto my knees and sobbed. I walked out of the concert hall, everyone left me, I was alone.

I walked back to Ryuga's house to apologize and knocked on the door. Ryuga opened, and he glared at me, went back inside and threw my stuff back at me, "Get!" he told me, like I was a dog and slammed the door. More tears fell down my cheeks, I now had no friends, I was alone in this world, I walked the streets, and rented a apartment, it wasn't fancy but it was somewhere I could stay at. I collapsed on the bed, and started sobbing. Was this the feeling of pure sadness? Is this what Ryuga felt while waiting for me to wake up?

One month went by and I still was so so sad, when ever I saw Ryuga on the street, I would need to run away, I was afraid of him and I would start to cry. I took a lot of walks, it helped with my stress, I still went beyblading, but every time I would pull out Beautiful draco I would start shaking. I slept too much and ate too little. I became depressed.

Month two: I cried every day, I could not help it, I was just so sad, whenever I thought of Ryuga or any of my friends I would start crying, I tried to text Madoka, but she ignored me just like everyone else. I did not beyblade, in fact I didn't know where my bey was, I gave up on cleaning up the place.

Month three: I hardly felt any emotion other than sadness, and if I did it was usually anger at myself for everything I ever did. I texted Ryuga once saying "Hey Ryuga, I hope you are doing well, I miss you, I am sorry, Ryuga I am so so so sorry, I know you hate me and I hate myself, but I want you to know am sorry." I saw that he read it, but I did not get a response.

Month four: I have started hurting myself, I did not notice that I did at first, but then It started hurting, but I truly didn't care. At first it started with a simple stub of the toe but it grew to cutting my arms and opening my scars. I wore dark clothes and didn't got out of the apartment, for much. Nobody cared about me, and I was alone in this world. I often kick the wall of my apartment, hard enough to hurt me but not hard enough to dent the wall.