Steps into the past

I have to move on

It was lunch time.
I went to the cafeteria,
As I just wanted to put myself in a free place, baily shouted my name.
Stevens come over I have to talk to you.
I took my tablet,
Sit down Izzie.
Okay listen this hospital needs a new neurosurgeon, we lost one of the candidates for this job Stephanie Edwards you probably have heard what happened.
Now it's your turn we want you back.
I ...
She interrupted me.
I know you, 
Me and Doctor Webber talked a lot about you and we both think you're perfect for this job.
Well you wouldn't be the chief of neuro
But you would earn good,
You know everyone here ,this hospital is familiar for you and how great would it be to work with Meredith, Alex and me.
You'll get to know yourself quickly.
Before I could say something she left the table.
I couldn't really understood what was happening at this moment,
I felt like everyone was moving instead of me,
Everything is different Bailey is nice to me,
Webber isn't the chief anymore,Mark, Lexie and George are dead and I have no idea where Christina and Derek could be.
I felt dizzy and went home.
I called a taxi.
Hey Izzie how you're doing ?
It was frank the taxi driver,
I wasn't answering him.
I guess that you want that I drive you home right?
Right I said.
We didn't really chatted while he was driving,
frank was listing to one of the beach boys song "forever".
As we arrived
I gave him his money and went upstairs into my room.
My mom was calling, I did not want to make a phone call but she would only annoy me if I would answer the call.
Hey Mum what is up?
Isobel i want to ask you how you are doing ?
I'm fine mum everythink is fine,
I did not felt well that was a lie
But if I told  my mother how I felt she would come to Seattle, and this would be worse .
Ohh Isobel I have to hang up project Runaway is now on Air.
The phone call was over...
I still have the habit to bake if I'm not feeling well.
So i grapped everything that I founded in this apartment.
-milk
-sugar
-Flour
And more stuff.
I turned my music on I was listening to hamiltom.
I forgot the time and quantity during bakin,
Until I realised that I have way more muffins as I though, five plates full of muffins.
I put them into the fridge
And went to bed,
I expected that I couldn't sleep but one second after I was lying in my bed I felt asleep.
I had a horrible dream,
I was dreaming about Denny,
That he is back,
Back as my hallucination.
Maybe Seattle is not the place to live for me,
I have to leave I need to go home.
I went up in the middle of the night,
I packed my things and went to the airport.
I left Meredith behind a message on the phone
Hey Mer I'm sorry but I have to leave.
Seattle is at the moment not the place to live for me.
I hope we'll see us soon
Yours Izzie.
       Oh and I left some muffins in front of your door. Enjoy them ;)
I went to the Airport,
I missed Seattle already but I thought
It was time to move on
To forget my feelings and my thoughts.