To Niall,
The babies are due in two days Ni..
I wish I could be happier though.
I miss you so much and it hurts to be without you.
Harry is not holding well at all.
I had to watch him and Alek the other day again.
He looks just like Louis and it breaking him apart.
How will I be able to tell him that I know where Louis is and that he is..
Well you know...
The doctors say that his Lukemia is just getting worse and worse.
Harry misses him so much right now that he hates him.
But Louis didn't leave because of Alek.
He left because he was sick and he didn't want Alek growing up with two daddies and in the end only having one.
I wish I could tell Harry.
Louis won't let me because then he said that he would be even more broken.
How are you baby?
I miss you so much.
With all my love,
Liam Xxx
My Dearest Liam,
I am so sorry.
I haven't any good news.
I am staying another two years.
I am so sorry.
I fought and fought but I just couldn't change the majors mind.
I wish I could be there for the babies to be born.
I made a friend here.
His name is Nick and he is married to this guy James.
He showed me a picture of them together and they are so in love.
I miss you so much.
Do you want to do when I miss you?
I take my picture of you out of my pocket and I look up at the moon.
I imagine that you are looking at it too.
I am so tired Liam.
All I do every day is work, work, work.
Tell Harry and Lou that I miss them.
Louis will fight through this.
I know him.
I can't wait to hold our babies in my arms and tell them how much I love them.
I got a new tattoo.
It is a rose with your name in it and throughout the stem there are thorns.
They have the babies names on them.
I miss you.
I love you .
Niall Xxx
