After Logan left I decided that it is the right time to text Jake. I pick up my phone from my bed and click on the contact named "My baby". I smile at the thought of him and then take a deep breath before I start typing
Me: Hey :(
My baby: Hi... I'm sorry
Me: Don't be, it was my fault, If you don't want to say it, it's fine. I shouldn't have pressured you...
My baby: So we're friends again?
Me: We never stopped being friends you dummy:)
My baby: I love you
Me: hjsgjsbta what!?
My baby: Haha, it's hard for me to say it but that doesn't mean I can't type it ;)
Me: I miss you... My baby: I'm coming to your house
Me: yay, I'll be waiting
I was looking out my window waiting for Jake to come. I'm way to hype about seeing him again. I see his car turning on my street so I run down stairs tripping on multiple things. I open the door before he even knocks. I jump on his arms wrapping my legs around him. He catches me and laughs at my excitement. "I love you. I love you. I love you" I say kissing him all over his face and he laughs harder. "And if you can't say it, I'll say it for both of us, please Jake don't leave me alone never again, NEVER AGAIN" I beg him. "I won't I promise I won't" he hugs me tighter. He enters the house and puts me down closing the door behind him. Then we go to the kitchen to cook something. We both suck at cooking BTW
We're making pizza and Jake is about to wash some dishes. He starts washing them but he accidently wets his sleeve. "Oh wait let me help you" I say trying to pull his sleeve up so that it wouldn't bother him but he quickly takes it away from me. "No it's fine I don't mind it touching me" he says. Woah, that's weird. The way he took his arm away makes me suspicious. No Tessa, stop don't start this again he said... He said he didn't mind so you need to believe it. You trust him. We ate our pizza and then watched a movie. Jake is staying here tonight because I wanted to have him by my side with me after the argument we had. I want to spend every minute of my life with him. "Okay, I'll sleep on the floor and you can sleep on your bed" Jake says winking. "Why can't you just sleep with me? Logan did so"... "You and Logan slept together When? Why? How? And Where?"... "Jake chill Logan and I only slept together not had you know what" I told him smiling
Jake took his shirt off and layed on top of the blanket he had extended on the ground. I'll admit it I'm stairing. I don't even know what kind of desire is that but I want him to lay with me Or on me I don't mind;). "Jake?" I call for him. "Mmm" he replies with a sleepy voice. "Get your self up here" I yell and he looks at me smirking. He says "Nope" and goes back to sleep. I get on the floor and hug his body tight. His warm skin touches mine. He tries to get away but I don't let him. "Tessa" he says laughing. He voice sounds like music to my ears. "Either you get up with me or I stay down here with you" I tell him trying to convince him to come with me. "I'll go have a drink so that I can sleep easier... Do you want one" he asks. "No way remember what happened last time" I reply and he leaves. Even his back looks hot. I go back to my bed and try to go to sleep
I hear Jake walking in the room and quickly close my eyes pretending I'm asleep. He comes closer to me putting his hand on my hair. "I'm sorry for lying to you for this long, you should know everything but I couldn't tell you, it would break your heart. And I don't want that. But I'll tell you now since you can't hear me. I have to leave forever, I know I promised I would always be here but I'm afraid you'll have to live without me. Please don't be mad at me. I love you" he says putting his clothes on and leaving. I remain silent until I fear the front door close. I started crying to the fact that he was leaving. But leaving where? And why?... Is he with someone... I'm really sad because I'm loosing him...
Jake kept calling and messaging me but I ignored him. It would hurt more when he leaves if we're still really close. I haven't seen him for 2 weeks. I really miss his scent...his face...his voice... HIM. Today Im going to Jake's house because Pam needs me for something and I pray not to Jake there because it would be hard for me not to run up to him and hug him. I ring the bell and wait a couple of minutes before Jake opens the door. Of course it had to be him. "Hey" he says smiling. It's a different smile though. Like it takes a lot of strength for him to put it on. I also noticed that his face is pail white. He then opens his arms trying to hug me but I stop him by grabbing his arms. He backs up screaming in pain. "Oh, god are you okay?" I ask concerend and he nods holding his arms. "Jake what's wrong" I ask him. "Nothing is wrong, I just need some sleep" he says. I take his arm and wrap it around my neck and shoulder to help him walk up the stairs. He looks at me and smiles weakly. Something is seriously wrong with him.
When we got to his room I put him on his bed carefully and sit beside him. "What happened to you?" I ask tearing a little and my voice cracking. I can't stand seeing him like that. "It's fine baby, I'm fine" he replies coughing after that. He called me baby. Oh how much I had missed these words coming out of his mouth. My eyes land on his arm. The part I had touched before has marks. He notices I was looking there and so he covers his arm with the blanket. "Jake,...what are you keeping from me?" I ask him. What is he doing to him self. This is all to much for me. I'm so confused I don't know what to do. "Kiss me" he says out of nowhere. I look at him still having that lost expression written all over my face. Especially now I'm emotionally weak. I lean in and connect my lips with his. I feel like there's a lot of butterflies in my stomach. Then he pulls away coughing. "It's fine I told you I might be getting a cold. I just need some rest" he says and I nod, Then smile and I pull the blanket over his body. "I'll see you tomorrow" I say kissing his forehead and leaving the room. I went home thinking about our kiss. Maybe he won't leave after that kiss.
The next morning I woke up as energetic as ever. I put on a nice outfit to go see Jake. This boy makes me feel so happy. I can't stand being away from him this long. I got in my Sting Ray Corvette and drove to Jake's house. I was so excited to see him. I hop out the car with excitement. I start walking towards his house. But then I stop at my tracks as I see an ambulance parked outside of his house. There where people running in and out of the house. I start walking again and get in the garden. The door is wide open so I slowly walk straight in. I hear people yelling and crying. This is definitely not good. I slowly walk up the stairs and I hear people yelling and screaming things like " No or stay way from him!". Then two men walk down the stair with a 'Bed' or whatever it's called. Then Pam and Logan walk behind the two men followed by their family crying. Pam and Logan were crying as Logan hugs her. The nurses walk passed me and then I see...Him.
I see Jake laying there not moving at all. The nurses stop for a while giving me a chance to realize what was going on. I put my hand on his stone cold white pail arm. I look over at Pam and she comes closer pulling me into a hug as we watch them taking Jake away. "Enough with crying this won't help anymore, mom and dad drive to the hospital and Tessa come with me you'll ride with me, Jake needs us now more than ever" Logan says as he grabs his keys. Then we all rushed to the cars and drove off to the hospital. I got into Logan's car and sat where Jake used to sit. I didn't realize I was crying until I feel Logan's thumb rubing my cheek, rubing the hot tears off my face. "Hey's a strong guy, he'll make it you'll see, and when he's done with all of that, we will get to have him by our sides again" Logan says trying to comfort me and i nod smiling weakly. I want to believe everything he says but it's just too hard. I can't get the image of Jake laying on the bed not moving at all out of my head and it's killing me. //Skips Drive// When we got to the hospital I rush out the car to meet up with the rest of the family waiting for us. As we walk in Logan asks a nurse at the office where Jake Paul's room is. And she tells us that he's in the 2nd floor. So we started to run up stairs and once we got there I saw Jake dressed in hospital clothes still layed down not moving at all. His eyes where still closed while a lot of doctors
At this point we are all in the waiting room, desperate to get some answers like why or how did this happen to Jake. And most importantly if he's okay or not. We all stand up as we see a nurse coming towards us. "Hello, everyone. I know you all want to know how Mr. Paul is going, but unfortunately I'm afraid things aren't going to well since he hasn't been taking his medicine and---" the nurse said before Logan cuts her off, "What kind of medicine? He never told us anything" Logan asks. "He's been visiting the hospital frequently meaning he knew what he had. I guess he didn't want to get anyone worried. In the few months I know this kid, he wants to get through the obstacles by himself but that's not good for him" the nurse explains. Damn, Jake has always been stubborn and he never wants to give out the impression that he needs anyone. The nurse tells us to wait for news here, before walking off. I sit on my chair wondering about everything; why would he do that, did he want this to happen? Because not taking his medicine was obviously his choice. "Come on, I'll take you home. You're too tired already and you need some rest" Logan tells me and I look up to him shaking my head no. "I can't leave him, I want to be with him" I say my voice cracking a little. "I understand that but there is no use of you staying here, you're just getting tired of waiting for results, we will keep you informed about everything, plus Jake would want you to rest, right?" Logan says trying to convince me and I finally give up, noding slowly
