Once I got home I took off my shoes and went to bed. The questions never left my mind but I decide that it would've been better if I just sleep on it and figure it out as soon as I've gotten more rest. I close my eyes and slowly fall asleep on the white sheets of my bed. I'm walking in Jake's hospital room. I saw him at the exact position I had seen him when I went there; with wires connected to his body and a mask on, covering his mouth and allowing him to breath. I also see myself laying on the couch next to Jakes bed, before doctor comes in and whispers something in my ear. I start screaming and crying as the nurses tried to calm me down but that seems impossible at the moment. I see myself running towards Jake's bed and I grab his arm "Wake up please, show everyone your still here, Jake please Wake Up!" I yell the last part out while shaking his whole body and the nurse takes me away from him. Then I escaped from the nurse and run back to Jake "Please babe wake up show everyone your not dead as they think you are" I say, Dead?. No this isn't happening Jake is not dead. He's a strong guy he will make it, I mean right? That's what Logan told me yesterday if I remember correctly. I sit up on my bed with sweat all over my face and chest, trying to catch my breath. That was a nightmare that I had woken up to this morning. I sign in relief and get dressed as fast as I can to go be with Jake by his side
There's no one outside of the room so I decided to walk in after knocking on the door. I grabbed the handle and open the door, revealing Jake's figure. After I close the door behind me, I slowly approach him sitting on the chair next to his bed and put my hand on his head. "Jake, please don't leave us, everyone here needs you. I need you... If your life ends I don't know how I'll keep mine going. Come on baby please, if you wake up we can go get Taco Bell (Jake's favorite food) and we can go to the beach. Just please wake up. I can't stand losing you" I say with tears running uncomfortably down my eyes. I bury my head on his stomach and let it all out, I cried so much. "Did you say Taco Bell?" A random person says with a familiar voice. I look up to see Jake's green/hazel eyes. "Don't you dare scare me like that ever again" I tell him with joy and happiness. Then I decided to text Logan because he wasn't at the hospital.
Me: Hey
Logan: Yo, what's up?
Me: Are you with Jake?
I see Logan running down the hallway and stand up to greet him. "Where is he?, is he okay? Can we take him home?, did he talk to you?" he asks without taking a breath in between. "Take it easy. They're checking up on him so we'll know in a bit" I reply and he sits down to catch a breath and I sit next to him. We waited for a while before we see the doctor getting out of Jake's hospital room. Logan and I instantly stand up. "Don't worry he's okay. He'll need to spend some more days in the hospital to make sure he's completely fine but other than that he's out of danger" the doctor says and we sigh in relief. "Can we see him?" Logan asks and the doctor tells us it's fine as long as we're not loud. We slowly walk in and see Jake laying there with his eyes half opened; the wires still connected to him and the mask on his face. "Hey bro, are you okay?" Logan says. You can tell how excited he is to see his brother awake again. "Good I guess" Jake replies with a raspy voice. We talked a little until I decided to ask him the question that has been running through my mind since the moment that I learned about this. "Why did you do this to your self?" I ask out of the blue and Jake's face expression instantly turns serious. "I tried to take the medicine but... It made me feel weaker than ever and it hurt. Tessa it hurt so much you don't even know. All these needles in my skin every night... I couldn't do it anymore, so I thought that maybe nothing would happen if I stopped them. You could never imagine all of this" he says. I couldn't believe how hurt he was and didn't tell us a thing about it. "But you said I'd have to learn how to live without you which means you already new what was gonna happen" I say. "I figured out that it was harmful to stop the medicine but it was already to late" he says looking at me. He's eyes are a little red and some tears were forming in his eyes. He wipes them quickly not wanting to cry in front of Logan and I. I get closer to him and pull him for a hug. He breaks down in my arms and keeps repeating "I'm sorry". "Shhh... Everything is fine. You're okay now" I say
