Poems

Millions

Mistake after mistake
I swear, they're all I can make
The impatient little old me
I'm so blind I can see
I see disaster and do nothing
Because nothing is all I am, but you make my nothing feel like something
I'm confused and feeling reused
But to just stay happy, I refused
So deaf I can hear
Hear when you're near
But I do nothing
Nothing to change something
Weak, weak is what I am
Settle for sitting because I'm too weak to stand
I only slow you down
There's no way I can again feel safe and sound
I'm already too broken
Sometimes I wished I hadn't spoken
But my actions can't be undone
I've said sorry so much, I'm left with none
Tired of living the same way
Using the same routine everyday
It gives me cancer, a deadly disease
Makes me suffer and weak in the knees
I bow down, to my god who doesn't even accept me
Is this why I live so unhappily
So many questions gathered but ignored
So many thoughts flooding my brain, I'm never bored
There are millions of them telling me things that make me want to die
They whisper stuff that makes me ask why
They scream, yell and Make my life a living hell
But there must be something to undo this horrendous spell
So I cry and scream
Tears overflow as I plead
Plead for forgiveness
Plead for happiness
Plead for death
Please
Just
Take
My
Breath