Precious Memories (GRAYZA)

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The next day was as same as everyday .... But the only thing that bothers me is that ... How was he going to end my suffering ? I look to my right and see that scarlet and Lyon was talking ... They were so happy ... Why can't I be happy ... And most of all I don't understand Lyon , one time he is full serious and other time he is not ... Looking at them ... Makes me realize that I'm jealous of scarlet ..She can make friends anytime and she also have so many Friends always there for her ... Raven was doing his work and I'm helping him .... We are like close friends ... He crack some stupid jokes that is not even funny ... But I like him that way childish and half funny . He always makes time for me ... But today I don't know but something feels different like ... Even though Raven is with me ... I feel empty , like I'm missing something ... Naaaa.... I think I'm going insane ... Raven was smiling and talking with me ... I miss this so much , I wish it will never end ... We were doing our work suddenly everyone was shouting , whistling and cheering ... We look to the direction and saw scarlet and Lyon in the most awkward pose with Jellal angry at them ... I ask someone what happen than they reply that Lyon and scarlet was just joking around suddenly one person came and trip himself as well as  push scarlet with him  ... As a result she was going to fall down but Lyon save her... Than I look at Raven he look angry and jealous ... He ran to their direction and separated them he pull scarlet to him and look at Lyon with the most terrifying glare I have ever seen "stay away from her " he growled ... Lyon just look at them ... And I can see mischief in his eyes ... What is wrong with him ? "Raven it was an accident " scarlet reason out but Raven was so angry to hear her reason .. he look at scarlet "this is also a warning to you too ... Stay away from him " he said to scarlet .. scarlet just remain emotionless ... And scared visible in her eyes ... Just than Jellal came in the scene "bro ... You are taking it a bit to far it was just an accident " Jellal said in a calm voice ... But Raven was so angry to listen to anyone .... He is a bit possessive type , behind his smile and laugher hides an unknown face of fear that someday everyone will leave him ... So he hides his fear with happy and go. lucky type of mask . He love scarlet too much that he fears that if she leaves him ... He will break ... He will break in such a way that it can never be fixed ... Raven just push Jellal and hold scarlet hand and said "come!!" He yelled at her ... For the first time ... The room was so tense ... No one was talking ... Can't hear the laughter ... Everyone was just focus on the scene played Infront of their eyes ... Scarlet just remain in her spot , that made Raven again more angry ... "Come" he said and try to pull her but Jellal held him back and pull scarlet behind his back and stood Infront of her like a shield ... "Raven you need to calm done ... Your creating a scene .. she is scared please leave her for now " Jellal said in a calming voice ... Raven glared at him and look at scarlet she was scared ... And shaking ... Raven felt guilt wash over him and punch Lyon before going ...  I went to Raven and stood behind him and look at Lyon he look happy but sad I don't know why and I left with Raven ....

Raven didn't know some things were happening behind his back ... Lyon was smirking , scarlet was scared of his sudden outburst and Jellal was calming her down ... Jellal didn't like the changing face of Raven ... He was scared for scarlet ... anything can happen in future as it was uncertain , he had a bipolar personality .... But all he hope for was her to be happy so he let it slide .... Then he look at Lyon and said "stay away , I think I know what your motives are ... So don't make my assumption come true" Jellal commented and took scarlet with him ... "Do you want to go home ?" Jellal ask ... "Yes I do " scarlet said ... And they went home .

Things with Raven was much more complicated ... He was angry and throwing things around in storage ... I was with him ... He was furious... I don't know why but for such small thing? Maybe he was having some doupts from before and the scene Infront of him broke his sanity.... I must be the worst friend ever cause I don't know for a minute I was happy...  "Raven calm down your hurting yourself " I said and tried calming him down ... He was shaking , then I look carefully ... I saw him crying ... "Raven what happen tell me I'm here for you please " I said ... He cried even louder ... I hesitate but I buried him in a hug "shhhhh.... Everything is just fine I am here for you" I said ... He calm down a little ... "I... I...." He choke on his words ... "I love her so much ... I was just afraid that she will leave me for someone else ... I.... Didn't mean to scare or hurt her .... I think ... I mess up " he said and cried ... I never saw him crying for anything ... So crying for her makes me somewhat jealous ... "Don't worry ... I'm sure she also loves you very much and I'm sure it's never too late to make amends for things " I said and smile .... "Thank you for being with me " he said and close his eyes .... Hearing that somewhat makes me realize that ... I'm really an idiot to fall in love with an idiot .... "Idiot I'm always with you forever and for always .". I said that in a low whisper , as soon as I said that the wind took it away ... Didn't even leave behind a trace of the word being said .... Looks like that unknown force called destiny is really true ... Taking away all those little chance of me being with him ... "Idiot" I mumble ....

UNKNOWN to anyone a certain person was looking at us .... Happy as well as sad. ... the word "thank you" certainly slip out of my mouth .. thanking the world to give me the moment for being with him .... The unknown person just smile and went away without a trace that he was even there .... That he was there for me ... That for me to be happy once in a while . ..... But the happiness didn't leave long it went away with the unknown person .... Raven woke up and smile brightly as if like the whole crying  thing never happen ... "I think I should go and say sorry for my behavior " he said and ran out of the door ... Leaving me alone , in the dark room. Making me realise that I'm always alone ... The hand  that was once holding him .. is now cold , taking away all the warmth with him ... I don't know how but a lone tear fell on my hand and I realize that I was crying , idiot ... I wipe my tears and look at my bare hands and smile " heart finds its way to tell me how lonely I'm " I said to myself .. than I hear footsteps like someone was running ... I look up to see Raven in the door , panting ... He gave me his famous smile "you didn't say good luck to me so I came back ... Your good luck  is always lucky for me " he said and show he his infamous thumps up .... I don't know what came up to me ... I gave my brightest smile ... That I even didn't realize that I have one and scream "Good luck !!!!!" Raven extended his hand like he was taking the words in his hand and put it in his heart and said "thank you ....." He said with a smile but panic afterwards "OPPS I'm late got to go ... But thank you " he said and rush out of the door ... I smile unknowingly to myself ... Good luck....

I'm the only idiot to myself giving my luck to my rival ... Am I?

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(Secret: I don't know why but I have a thing for obsessive and saddist  guys lol and I have a bipolar personality .... That I just recently found out )