His Melodies

Pondering In The Ocean

Hiiii! Most of you probably skip my openings 😂! It's okay, I do to when it's wayyy to long. So just thank you for the reads! Enjoy!
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Levi's P.O.V-
"What in the bloody hell do you mean Eren's gone?" I say and stand up to go to his room. His room was empty, the bed sheets on the floor and the window opened. He even left his jacket. "Levi!" Armin and Mikasa said as they ran to his room. Mikasa and I both looked devastated. "What?" "Marley's also gone! I think he's with Eren or looking for Eren. That dog can't be without Eren for more than 48 hours." Mikasa says as she checks the whole entire house with Armin and I helping. "Armin! Go check around the neighborhood! I will check here! Levi check in the hospital! Now!" Mikasa demands and we all start searching. Why did Eren leave? Was this stressing him out too much? Please god, let him be alright.

Eren's P.O.V-
I woke up and heard Levi and Mikasa. This made me frown, I was such a god damn burden. Why can't I just die? Put me to rest from suffering and suffering my family. I don't care no more. I just want an answer, will I live longer or will I die faster? Without thinking I get out of my bed and open the window. Marley whimpered and checked on what I was doing. "I'm sorry Marls. I can't take you with me." He rubbed his head on my lap.

"Fine. Don't make too much noise. I just need to go out for a while. I haven't walked with you in a long while." I saw and grab his leash. I put him on the leash and walked down the stairs but saw Levi and Mikasa. I decided to go by the window. It wasn't that long of a drop. I jumped first then I almost fell. Marley jumped and fell on his side but still waged his tail. "Good Boy. I'm sorry but I just need to get out from the world now." I said while petting his head and he licked my hand.

I run to one of my favorite places. I run to the beach. I've always had a soft spot for the ocean. I've never been able to go ever since my mother died but I always wanted to go again. I ran and felt the warm sand between my toes. I took of my shoes and made a sand angel. I smiled and laughed while Marley jumped up and down wagging his tail. I rolled up my sleeves and my pants. I went into the water where it reached up to my knees. Marley jumped in, defeating the purpose of me being dried. "Marley!" I said and threw him water. I danced around in the water for about an hour. In the end both of us were soaking wet but it was worth it. I had a good time and I'm pretty sure Marley did too.

I sit dried while Marley laid down beside me. He was panting and I was trying to regain my breath. We laid down there and looked at the sun as it set. For once out of my whole entire damn life besides my childhood did I actually feel like I wasn't being threatened by an illness. I felt... free. Like I could do anything. That's how I wanted to feel for ever. It was a nice feeling. I felt at peace and calm.

The stars started to laminate the sky and the moon rose. I just realized I left my phone at my house, doesn't matter because I know the way back. I just didn't want to go back. Back there is where my life changed and shattered. My mom died there, I found out I was with the same illness as her and I found love there. My life basically was there. But now I don't want to go back, I want to just be free. Feel this feeling. Then I wonder, does Mikasa, Armin and Levi feel this way? Do they feel free? They must have, they have no disease or problems in their health. I want to feel that. I found myself crying. I wipe them away.

I'm done with crying. I'm going to die. Every life on this planet will die at some point. Mine will just end earlier than expected. I'm no longer afraid to die, I kind of want to let go. I don't want to live no more. I wonder, do dead people feel this way? What I'm I even saying? Of course  they don't feel anything, they have passed, they have lived their life. I bring my knees to my chest and lay my head down. Might as well live life to the fullest. YOLO right?

I get up and wipe the sand Of from my clothes. I wipe off Marley in the process. "Let's get back home bud." I say and take his leash and walk back home. I open the door and Mikasa runs up to me, tackling me in a bear hug just like the first day I met Levi. "Eren! Are you insane?! Why did you leave?!" She yelled in my ear. I covered my ears and winced. I ignored her question and went upstairs. I didn't come home to get interrogated by Mikasa and her possessiveness.

I go up and see Levi in my room. I really didn't want to deal with him right now. "Eren? Why in the bloody hell did you leave?" He asked while pulling me into an embrace. I pulled away and shook my head. "I just want to be alone." I went to the bathroom to take a shower. "I'm sorry Levi..." I mutter. "I want to die..." I say as I let the warm water consume me. I dry off and change into a clean pair of clothes. I sighed before getting into bed and closing my eyes. "Eren you don't expect for me to leave you alone right?" I heard my raven boyfriend say.

I opened my arms and he walked over to me. I wrapped my arms around him. "Eren tell me what's wrong. I'm here for you." I heard him say but it sounded like a whisper. "I-I want to die. I'm just a burden to you and Mikasa and Armin. Either way I will die sooner or later." I say and he caresses my cheek. "Eren don't say such things. Don't give up your life because it's precious. Your precious to me. You will never be a burden." He says and tightens his grip around my waist. "Thank you.." I manage to say. "Get those horrible thoughts out of your head. Live for me. Live for Mikasa. Live for Armin. Live for you more importantly." Levi kissed my forehead and rubbed my back.

"I don't know what I'll do without you and this days I've spent with you have been the happiest I've ever been. Please... don't die on me." He says and for the first time I actually see him tear up. I wipe away his tears and give him a peck on the lips. "I will. I love you." He kissed me again and it gets a bit heated. We use our tongues and fight for dominance. Levi won and explored the inside of my mouth. He sucked on my tongue and I let a moan come out from my thirst. I pulled back with a string of saliva connecting our tongues. "I'm tired. I want to sleep." I say and lean on the bed. I feel Levi get in the bed with me.

He had his arms around my waist and his head was against my back. I turned around and hugged him. We feel asleep and all I could think about was that I was glad I had Levi in my life. What can I say? I'm in love with Levi Ackerman.

I have an important question... should I add smut next chapter? Or should I wait? Or should I not even have smut at all?

Aww! Yay! Finally got this chapter done! I'm at the doctors right now because  ya know... surgery. Anyways! Hope you enjoyed this chapter! See you in the next chapter! Bye!