Almost A&M

There's This Thing About The Rain

Late 2015

"Alam mo, there's this thing about the rain, that makes you want to let go and hold on to it forever."

He was sitting in my couch, and I was preparing coffee for him - bilang bisita ko siya at hindi pa kami close neto.

I think this probably happened a few weeks after we first met.

Medyo awkward pa, pero ok na?

Ok so sige awkward kasi inuna niyang magsabi sa tatay ko na manliligaw siya bago sakin like wtf ang manong but tatay liked it

I don't. Cause I still don't know what to feel about him.

"Paano?" I placed the cup and sat beside him, still a comfortable distance as co-w .. friends. Not really, basta.

He took my hand and I was proud of myself to flinch and withdraw it. Alden holds my hand ever so gently, since the beginning.

"This is the rain." He made rain gestures with his other hand.

"And when it drops to your hand .." His fingers touched my palm.

"You let go as the raindrops fall from between your fingers."

Alden slid his fingers in the spaces between mine, like how raindrops fall. Like how my heart slowly falls.

"But you'd hold on to whatever's left on your hand."

I see it, our fingers intertwined. Unconsciously I had held on to him, like he's some raindrop on my hand that I didn't want to let go.

But maybe in the future I'd have to.

"Pano pag, pag natuyo? Pag kailangan mo nang pagpagin yung tubig?"

Pano pag kailangan mo nang bitawan ako?

"When the rain stops, then .." his hands left mine. And it kinda hurt, how easily he can slip through my hands and out.

"I can see the sun." I feel the same hand hold my face, his eyes looking right through mine, as he said.

"I can see your smile."

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Ayt ayt konting kacheesyhan lang na naisip ko habang nakapayong na naglalakad sa ilalim ng mahinang ulan.

Breezy diba? Tapos langya kinilig ako hanggang makasakay feeling ko jinudge na ko ng mga katabi ko sa fx.

Pwedeng pwede niyong gamitin to kras niyo.