i thought i trusted

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by lacunic

by lacunic

i thiught i thought i thought i thought

after she fucked me up SO FUCKING BADLY i thought maybe, MAYBE i could ssufert hrough it and make it and be different for him. he said. i was the same. so i devoted ny time to being different and i waited and i gave hik my everything with NOTHING IN RETURN and i was still just.. fine.
and now im tattered. weary. look at sammy. annoying, ranting sammy. its 1am and i want to sleep and never wake up but sleeping sounds like meh and eating makes me want to throw up and i wish my binder would kill me already so at least i can die with something still making me feel good.

fuck
everything.
my insides feel like crumpled up paper.
my lungs feel like steel.
look at annoying sammy, what a pussy. fuck you. fuck your opinions and wjat you live for and you can piss off forever cause all i need to a shovel and a gravestone and i'll put myself 6 ft under without any of your guys' help so you can eat my ass for ever thinking that i hadnt moved on from every single breathing body in that school the momwnt i met them. fuck you, fuck off, or fuck me.