I'm still here - Hannah and clay fanfic-

Chapter 1

Hey it's Hannah......hannah baker and I never left im still here, but I already sent the tapes out I wonder if all hell will break loose now that I survived. I'm sorry everyone but I wanted to let you guys know how it felt.

My eyes open, I look next to me and I see monitors next to me and wires attached to me. I look through the little window and I see my parents outside of my room crying. I see stitches on both of my arms.
The doctor comes in my hospital room and looks at me surprised.

"Mr.and Mrs. baker she's awake!" The doctor says as he tells them. My parents run into my room and my mother starts crying with joy and so does my father. My mother runs towards my bed and kisses me on my cheek and she hugs me. My father kisses me on my forehead and he hugs me too.

All I can think in my head were about the tapes. What will happen now that I actually didn't die. I saw everything I kept to many secrets and now those secrets are out to the people on the tapes. But they deserve to know how I felt and what caused this.

I stood in the hospital for a week my parents tried to ask me why did I try to attempt, but I never answered them. After the week in the hospital they took me home I was sitting in the back seat watching people with their friends and I just watching houses pass by quick.

We got to my house I opened the car door and I walked to my house. I saw clay from afar riding his bike he was riding it and he was getting closer, but then he stopped as I turned around and I showed my face. Clay closed his eyes and opened them again but I was still standing there he probably thought he was imagining it but I'm still here.

I walked to my house I looked once more but clay was gone he was riding his bike back. I had to go back to school the next week, I didn't want to go back I just wanted to be home.

It was Monday morning and I got up brushed my teeth, took a shower, did my hair, got dressed, and ate my breakfast.

I walked to school and I got there when I was in the parking lot I can just feel the shockness on the people when I walk inside.

I opened the door and I walked inside I looked at the floor as I kept walking. Once I looked up people weren't paying attention.

I went to my locker and I saw pictures of me and notes for me I read the note. I opened it and I took some stuff out.

I walked away and I looked up. People started to look at me in shock. I can hear the whispers people were starting to say.

"Oh my god she's alive!" A girl whispered.
"I thought she committed suicide." Someone else said.

I walked by Justin, Bryce and Jessica. Bryce looked at me in shock and he tapped Justin in the shoulder and then he pointed at me.

The look on Justin's face when he looked at me, I'm guessing he has the tapes right now because the look on his face was like he was screwed.

I walked to my class and I could feel everyone's eyes on me during the whole period. Classes passed by and teachers kept me for a few minutes after class asking if I'm okay and why did I do it.

I went to my locker during lunch to put something away then Justin came up.

"Why?" Justin said.

"Why what?" I said confused.

"Hannah I was the beginning to the end? What the hell why would you make these?" Justin said.

"I can't talk about this here." I said as I closed my locker.

Justin took me to the school basement and that's where we talked.

"I made this because I was hurt." I said.

"Hannah no one deserves this." Justin said as he lifted the box of tapes.

"But I did? I deserved getting raped by your best friend Bryce, I deserved to be harassed because of that stupid fucking list, I deserved to go through all of the shit you and your fucking friends put me through." I said angry.

"No, Hannah you didn't deserve that. Okay I'm sorry I regret it I should've never made that rumor. I really did like you Hannah but I was caught up in the lie. I'll do anything for you to forgive me." Justin said starting to get sad.

"Pass the tapes." I said.

"What?" Justin said confused.

"Pass the tapes that's how you forgive me. If you don't pass it I will reveal it to everyone. People should know the hell I was put through and what triggered me." I said angrily.

"Hannah I can't." Justin said.

"Why?"

"Because of what he did to Jessica the night of the party that was wrong and what i did was wrong." Justin said.

"Of course it was but it would be worse if everyone else knew about it. Pass it around and I'll deal with everyone else but I forgive you." I said to Justin.

"Hannah are you sure." Justin said.

"Yea I'm sure just pass it." I said.

"Hannah I'm really sorry for what I did." Justin said.

"It's okay." Justin came in for a hug And we just hugged each other. After our conversation we went our separate ways and I saw Justin leave the box of tapes in Jessica's Locker.

At the end of the day I saw Jessica open her locker and she looked at the box once she opened it, the tapes were inside she looked at them confused but then she put them in her backpack and left. I look at clay but clay stares at me for a quick second then he leaves.