I'm still here - Hannah and clay fanfic-

Chapter 4 & authors note

"Alex I really don't wanna talk about this right now, I have somewhere to be." I say starting to feel bad.

Alex stops me before I go to the car, "no you need to talk about this right now, what the hell did you think I wasn't gonna talk to you at all about this?"

"No I knew we were gonna talk about this." I said.

"Okay so we are gonna talk about this" Alex says.
"Why would you do this to us, why would you lie." He says angry.

"I didn't lie about them!" I say.

"If you felt that way about me and Jessica why didn't you say anything." He says.

"Because you guys were good together and me opening my mouth about it would of pissed off jessica and you." I say sadly.

"Look I'm sorry I should've never left you alone, but Hannah you know one deserves this and if clay finds this, what will happen?" Alex says.

"I don't know but alex I really can't talk." I say trying to quickly leave.

"Hannah are you really mad at me?" Alex says sad.

Alex sits down on my front porch steps. "No, Alex you owned up to what you did was wrong and I forgive you. I was just so hurt and sad everything in my life went wrong." I say tears starting to come out.

"Hannah im so sorry for doing that, I should've talked to you."Alex says and he hugs me. I start to feel a little better and my tears start to dry up.

"I gotta go Alex." I say as I wipe my tears, I grab the box of tapes and I go in the car and drive away.

I wait for clay to come out and clay comes out smiling at me, he comes inside the car and says hi to me.

"So where do you wanna go today?" I say. Clay smiles at me.

"Why don't we go roller skating." Clay says.

"Oh god clay I don't know how to skate." I say nervously. Clay smiles at me, "hannah don't worry, because I don't either but we can teach each other. I smile at him and I drive to the rollerskating rink, once we arrive I take a deep breath hoping not to embarrass myself in front of him.

We both go inside and I hear music blasting once I walk inside, we get our skates and we help each other stand still.

"Okay so you ready?" Clay says smiling at me nervously. I smile back at him and I nod my head, he grabs my hand and takes me with him. In my head I'm thinking I'm probably look like an idiot about to fall right now.

2 hours later

"Thanks for helping me out in there, I bet I looked like a complete idiot." I said giggling. Clay giggles and looks down, "well I probably look like a bigger idiot almost falling down and not knowing what to do.

Clay and I get into the car and drive to monéts. Clay holds open the door for me and we both walk inside, we sit down and just talk.

"Okay so today was interesting." Clay says. I smile at him.

"Well yea it really was, I like hanging out with you helmet." I say giggling. Clay giggles and looks at me into my eyes.

"So How are you feeling?" Clay asks me.

"I'm Fine." I say smiling at him. Clay smiles back, "hannah I've been meaning to ask but I don't want to annoy you." He says rubbing his neck.

"What is it?" I say confused.

"Well Hannah, will you ever tell me why you did what you did?" He says nervously.

I look down and I want to tell him what happened but I wasn't ready yet to tell him, my heart starts to beat as think about the tapes. How will he react once he hears his. My phone vibrates and I check it my mother texts me to come home.

"Clay I will tell you when the time is right, but I have to go home my mom wants me." I get up and wait for clay to get up but he's still sitting down staring into space.

"You coming?" I say. Clay snaps out and looks at me, "no I'm just gonna stay, I'll call tony to drop me off." He says.

"Okay." I say as I shrug my shoulders and I walk out and get into my car. I drive by home but then I start to think about the tapes.

Tyler was next and I was thinking to myself maybe I should stop but something else tells me they deserve to hear this and feel the pain that I felt.

I knew where Tyler lived so I drove there, once I got to his house I grabbed the tapes and I wrote his name on the box, I left it on the porch and rang the doorbell and I ran.

The door opened and Tyler grabbed the box, and examined it for a few seconds then he took it with him and closed the door. I got into my car and took a deep breath.

The next morning, I wake up and it's Sunday morning. What will Tyler tell me tomorrow I think to myself.

I get on my phone for a couple minutes, then I get out and do my natural routine. Once I'm done I go downstairs and eat breakfast. Sunday was boring as usual and I just stood home all day.

Monday morning, I wake up and I take a shower and brush my teeth then I get dressed. I run out the door without even saying goodbye to my parents. I get to school and I start to do what I do everyday at school, Tyler comes up to me during lunch.

"Hannah." He says nervous. I look at him "you don't have to apologize but make sure you get yourself a new window." I grab the box of tapes out of his hands and I walk away.

Authors note:
Hey guys I'm sorry I didn't write in a long time I'm just so caught up with school work 😒🤦‍♀️, sorry this chapter sucked but don't worry I promise it will get better and keep reading my other stories. Love y'all☺️💖