[ shawn's POV ]
i sat on the couch with my best friend, y/n. we've been friends for as long as i can remember. our parents grew up together, it's one of those friendships.
for the past few months i've noticed my feelings for her change. i mean yeah, of course i've always thought she's a beautiful girl. who couldn't? her gorgeous green eyes that make me want to melt, her long brown hair that makes her eyes pop even more, her sun kissed skin that compliments her body in every way. she's literal perfection.
but that's not all i see anymore when i look at her. when i look at her i see who she is on the inside. she's an extremely kind, intelligent, woman. she's so mature for how young she is, it's rare for this age. a normal 17 year old is usually off going to parties every weekend, drinking away their lives. she's not. the partying doesn't seem to entertain her. sure, she'll have a drink occasionally, but not with a large crowd.
"what are ya thinking about mendes?" she suddenly asked, bringing my thoughts to a pause.
"i don't know." i lied, causing her to giggle a little.
"you don't know?" she asked and paused the movie.
i nodded my head.
we sat there in silence for what seemed like forever, but was actually just a couple minutes.
"shawn?" she asked.
i looked over at her, signaling for her to speak.
"what do you think love is?" she asked and began to play with her fingers, a sign that she's nervous.
i felt my heart race a little, and my stomach do a few flips.
"well..,"
"i think love is when you have this crazy feeling for someone. when you can't go a minute without thinking about them. when they become more important to you than anyone or thing. when you'd do anything to put a smile on their face, or be the one to be there for them. when all you want to do is call them yours. comfort them. love them. be with them. i think that's what love is." i said not realizing how much i just said.
she stood still, looking down at her hands.
"what about you?" i asked.
"i don't know what love is, that's why i asked you. i figured you've been in love at least once in your life. you sure seemed in love with lauren." she said quietly.
it wasn't anything near what i felt for her though.
we were silent again for a few moments, before i grew a pair and decided to speak.
"y/n, i love you." i blurted out, not meaning to say it.
she stayed in the same stance, looking at her hands with a blank face. no emotion shown.
"uh, did you hear me?" i asked.
"i did.. don't mess with me shawn." she said and got up, walking towards the door.
"y/n no! i'm not messing with you, wait!" i said fairly loud and ran to her, grabbing her arm gently, but strong enough to stop her.
she turned around and faced me, tears slowly dropping down her face.
i examined her face before going on to talk.
"i'm so helplessly in love with you y/n.. its insane how fast ive fallen for you. it's taken everything in me to tell you, because i knew someone as amazing as you wouldn't want to be with someone like me. i'm being so serious when i say those words. i love you." i said looking down into her eyes.
her eyes left mine and examined my face as well. her eyes stopped at my lips, and she soon spoke.
"god i love you too.." she whispered and leaned in fast, attaching our lips for what felt like years.
when we pulled back for air, she rested her head on my chest.
"so what does this mean?" she asked after her breathing slowed down to normal.
"i want you to be my girlfriend. y/n, would you?" i asked, my hands slightly shaking from the adrenaline rush her kiss gave me.
"of course, shawn." she said and pulled back to kiss me again.
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where can i get a shawn
