regional at best.

lyings all ive learned

song: be concerned

i am disappearing inside my bird's eye theories
i tried to say goodbye, defy, and deny what it is I'm fearing
clearly I am dying, dearly I am writing, merely
testifying that a test to fly requires I pass the test with colors flying

trigger warnings// religious views, suicidal tendencies, homophobic slurs

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I feel the fallen tendencies of those around me who have found their very way, and lost it.

I distinguish those who hold on to a rope and don't let go because to them, it makes sense. No question intended. No doubt aroused. They believe what they're doing is okay and is righteous.

But, do the others around them deserve the constant hammering of negativity? Do they deserve the idolistic prayers these certain people spew? Because yes, I do see your intentions. They're clear as the very sky above my head but nobody deserves the thick oil dripping from these dirty tongues.

Nobody deserves to be scalded by the flames coming from their very mouths. They're your children, correct? Which comes to the conclusion, as a good parent shouldn't you conduct punishments up on them? Shouldn't you care for your other children as much as them? Which directs itself to the point, are you a good parent at all?

I have found my very health being threatened by those around me. Yes, I see people differently. I find arousal in different aspects, but that does not make me a poison to this community. I'm just a human. I'm a body composed of woven DNA and genetics to meet my very soul. I go through the same crap everyone else does. I breathe the same oxygen everybody else does. Im just a mortal being going through my life with a clarity that is not ashamed of who I am.

And that makes me scum?

From the laughter they snort and the venom on their own tongues, I'm starting to believe such blasphemous language. It's starting to get to me, even though I know it shouldn't. But, just as much as I'm a human, so are they.

They go through the notions because everyone else is. They don't see what they're doing is wrong and painful, because they don't have anybody to correct them. But, the tearful part is that they wouldn't understand until something horrid happens.

Normal human behavior. Sinful and gross. Its quite depressing and I don't understand how such a glorious father could just accept such catastrophic behavior.

I don't see the goodness of your actions when everything buries itself in the ruins. Scars of past conflict has made itself existent in the core of my being and I don't know how to heal its blemish. You're almighty and amazing, but you have done nothing to heal me from the bruises and scratches inflicted from the wrath of those around me.

Coil yourself around me like a snake and may you kill me, or let me survive and deal with the repercussions of my actions.

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i don't believe my ears and I'm scared of my own head
i will deny you for years and I'll make you raise me from the dead
and if I said that I would live for you for nothing in return
well, I'm sorry, Mr. Gullible, but lying's all I've learned