The Repentance of HUDAH

CHAPTER 6

One day I brought with me long Abaya and a head cover and entered the Grand Mosque in Thailand ,

I performed the prayer, and at the path of the mosque I took off my head cover and the long Abaya. I was about to put them in my bag;
and here was a surprise... an Asian girl approached me, she had blue eyes which I will never forget all my life, she was wearing the veil... she grabbed my hand gently, patted on my shoulder, and said softly: Why are you taking off the veil?! Do you not know that it is the command of Allah!!... I listened to her in astonishment, she asked me to enter the mosque with her for a few minutes, I tried to escape from her, but her overwhelming politeness and sweet dialogue forced me to enter.

She asked me: do you not witness that there is no god but Allah? Do you not know its meaning? They are not just words spoken by the tongue, but you need to believe in them and behave accordingly.

This girl had taught me the harshest lesson in my life... my heart was shaken, and my feelings were subjugated to her words, and then she shook my hands saying: O sister stand up for this religion.

I left the mosque overwhelmed in thinking that I did not feel who was around me.

And there... I saw faces bright with the light of faith, and tearful eyes, not addicted to watching the forbidden as I used to do; I was overwhelmed by a feeling that I cannot describe... a feeling of happiness and awe, mingled with a sense of remorse and repentance, and I felt close to Allah the Almighty, my heart tendered, and my tears poured out regretting the times I wasted in doing anything other than that in the pleasure of Allah... in front of the TV screen, or on the meetings with bad companions who are only interested in gossiping.

I am accompanied by tears of regret regarding the days of my life which I spent away from my Creator who gave me everything.