My Life In A Nutshell

24/6/17

I wanted to write today.

I'm VERY busy this Summer. I have a job at a camp so I'm gone Sunday through Friday. I'm still trying to write, but it's hard. I am working on books and I have multiple ideas for other books. I know it doesn't seem like I'm trying to write but I am.

So here's some things on my mind:

- Fall Out Boy came out with another song, Champion, and I love it

- I'm tired from my job so I don't know how I'm going to be a responsible adult one day with an official, harder job

- Thank you to Aiden for keeping up my streaks while I'm working and don't have time

- I'm just in general contemplating my life 

- Wondering how one of my friends and cousin think that I should break up with my boyfriend because he's great and they don't control my life

- Contemplating the future

- Wondering how I'm going to survive this Summer

- Wondering how I'm going to have time to write all the books I want to write when I barely write

- Thinking how lonely I am now because my cat passed away

- Debating why I care about how one person thinks of me when I never care about how other people think of me 

- Thinking how much I'm going to miss my two Senior friends who are going off to College now

- I really want to sleep right now

- I should clean my room but I'm not going to

- How much I already miss my parents and I've only been working for two weeks

- Wondering why someone is best friends with someone that in my opinion they shouldn't be friends with

- Thinking about how messed up one of my cousin's life is and knowing that I have to be there for them even if people don't believe them

- Wanting to go see both Fall Out Boy and Imagine Dragons in concert but they're both coming to where I live in the same week and my parents probably won't let me go see both of them

- Wondering if I'm going to like my classes next year and if some of my friends will be in them

- Being afraid that my feelings are going to come crashing down and my life is going to fall apart

- Being afraid that if all of my feelings towards everything come out I'll lose some of my friends

- Knowing that I'm overthinking everything but I can't stop doing it

And that's just a portion of the things I'm thinking about.

My life is a beautiful, complicated mess. 

~Autumn