My Life In A Nutshell

5/5/16

My song for today.

This is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco 

Hi again. I'm back. (back again) You can't really tell right now, but I write my days the UK way now, even though I'm from the States. I'm normal, I swear. 

Anyway, onto my life. 

A lot can happen in a day. I haven't even told my irl friends really. So, hi friends. Welcome to my shadow world of panic. My lonely prison. 

(By the way the italics part is a line from my play I'm in. It felt necessary.)

Like I've said in a previous entry, I have a crush. No way, right? Yeah, well, a lot can change in a day. 

And not for the better. 

Remember how I said that he probably knew I liked him? Yeah, well, apparently both him and I are idiots. 

Because interesting things happened today. 

Backstory: My grade went to the Festival of Nations today. I don't know if it's just a Minnesota thing, but whatever. We got to experience different cultures, and eat different foods. That sort of thing. 

We had to have a partner. My partner was one of my friends who was a boy. (No, he's not my boyfriend. We're not dating. A couple people asked that today) That said boy is friends with my crush. That would be an important bit of information. 

Anyway, I was trying to find my cousin (I'll explain later), and my friend was trying to find his friend (aka my crush). We found them around the same area.

Ok, sorry, rewind. A tiny bit earlier, while we were talking, my friend accidentally told me that my crush had a crush on my cousin. 

Yep.

I acted cool with it. I mean, what do you do in that situation? So, I acted happy for them. And honestly, I sort of am. I was honestly expecting him to get a girlfriend soon. So, it's like it I was that surprised.

But the fact that it was my cousin...

And the fact that he admitted that he had liked her for the same time I had liked him...

Well, let's just say I've listened to this Panic song today a lot. 

A lot. 

And do you want to know what I just realized?

My cousin has my Wattpad. She's probably reading this. Well, I'll tell all of you, and also my cousin what I told her before, earlier today. 

Just throw me into a ditch, and forget about what I told you earlier.

(I had told her earlier, well more like reminded, that I liked him)

They're really cute together. 

I just need to understand my emotions.

And it's not like I hate my cousin. I love her. She's awesome. She's always helped me, and protected me. It's not like I hate her now. I could never hate her. 

Honestly, I'm probably supposed to end up single. 

Because my luck with guys isn't that great right now.  

So, yeah. This was long. Welcome to my world when I rant. 

Well, that's all. Thanks for reading this far. 

~Autumn