saudade || markhyuck

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i was visited by chenle and renjun today.

they brought me food, which was delicious by the way.

they stayed for a while, we talked, it was hard to keep you off my mind but i did it.

then they said their goodbyes and left.

i looked like shit, i'm not gonna lie.

i had dark bags under my red tear stained eyes, and a feeling in my chest that i couldn't get off.

can you die of a broken heart?

i don't think so. 

i probably would have been dead a long time ago.

so i went through our closet and found one of your old sweaters.

it surprisingly smelled like you.

i'm gonna admit, i cried. hard.

it's the closest thing i have to having you here.

but you'll come back and i can prove everyone wrong.

i miss your laughter. 

i wanna hear it one more time.

i just want to tell you a joke, i just want five minutes with you and i'd be able to rest and be happy forever.

can't we make a deal?

when you come back, i'm not ever letting you go.

ever.