saudade || markhyuck

5

what's it like in heaven

what's it like?

i get scared at night.

i hear bumps and i hold on to the pillow that is on your side.

it brings me comfort.

i swear, you're a ghost haunting my house.

i don't mind though.

okay so, i was going through my phone and i saw this video of us

we had two toy microphones and we were lip syncing to "girls just wanna have fun"

you were smiling and laughing so much.

you looked into my eyes.

i miss being able to look into your brown eyes.

you'd think mines are ugly now.

they're red and baggy.

taeyong hyung calls in to make sure i've eaten and i'm well.

i'm thankful.

but nothing can replace the void that is in my body, the feeling.

no matter what i eat, i feel hungry.

no matter how hard i cry, i feel the need to cry harder.

this is what you've done to me.

so come back, so come back and make it better.

i love you, mark lee.

and, as stated once before,

i won't ever stop.