THE STORY OF MY LIFE Imagine with NIALL :'Last first kiss '

part 1:

i was too young 18 years old when i lost my first love , i realized that he was in love with another girl , it was so hard to get through that chock , to get over him , i cried for nights i cried for days i thought it was just a nightmare but it wasn’t even i’m awake i see him and in my sleep every night whyyy ????? because i couldn’t get him out of my mind i couldn’t forget his face and his smile and his eyes , is that possible to forget him after 5 years of waiting for him with patience , 5 years of suffering , i loved him with passion and everyday when i see his face i just forget the whole world , but he was the dream that i couldn’t achieve it , it seemed to me exactly  like the moon that i can’t reach for , it was impossible and i said: it’s over !! after the big chock yehh  he loved another girl and i was like a dork i loved him sooo much from the deep of my heart !

it’s been for days in that bad condition , crying and even i tried to kill myself every time but why?!! Why should i kill myself to prove that he loves me or what !! nop that’s not the right thing so i decided to move on in my life to achieve all my dreams , my goals my ambitions even without him , without seeing his face i tried to stay strong ! and yehh i did it , i haven’t seen his face since six months because  he switched the school and now i know that he’s with that girl that he’s in love with and  that’s hurting me sometimes i say: well that’s okey i don’t care i don’t need him ! and sometimes i miss him like the mom when she miss her son every minute and she wanna be with him every moment !so i feel that and i start crying ! but then what ??  what’s gonna happen i’m wasting my time for someone who doesn’t care about me , i’m thinking about someone who had never thought about me before even a little bit i remembered someone who remind me everytime when i look into his eyes deeply that i’m not for him and that i’m waiting for nothing !! life is not easy as we think, as we see , life is more than we have , it’s more than we know but it’s less  than we want ! now i knew that you can’t have everything you want you have to settle for that life that you’re living in , i knew that the life can’t give us more than we expect life is short , you can say that life is like an evil  human that he won’t never make you happy even once and that’s what the life did for me she broke my heart , she just killed me and pass away without thinking about me , my future , my fate , she’s just a thief because she stole  the only person that i loved !