THE STORY OF MY LIFE Imagine with NIALL :'Last first kiss '

PART 17 :

..i looked through the window he was crying , setting on the floor and hitting his head on the wall and blaming himself, it hurts me to see him like that but i said” everything is over this is the last time that i’m going to give my heart to a guy i’ll stay forever alone that’s it !! it was a big disappointment for me......i couldn’t open the door something inside me didn’t let me do that maybe it’s not my heart , it’s my mind this time , i don’t know , so i looked through the window again and i saw him , he got up and he left , i was destroyed and my tears didn’t stop falling down on my face , he was crying so badly ! seeing him in that condition is tearing me apart , it’s killing me , make me feel guilty and now he became so far from my home i screamed and i cried much and more louder than i was ! i closed my room’s door by the key and i set on the floor crying without stopping , checking our pictures together and everytime i see his face in a photos is breaking my heart more ..then my BFF came and she heard me crying she tried to open the door but she couldn’t she said: roseopen the door what’s wrong !!?? but i didn’t talk i just kept crying , she knocked the door again so i said: go away i just wanna stay alone leave me !! she said: no tell me what’s wrong with you ?! me: go away !! she: but why!!?me i was shouting : why is that happening to me everytime i love someone?!! am i a bad person or what ?! she : of caurse no why are you saying that ??! me: just leave please !! then she left she couldn’t sleep and neither me i was laying into my bed the tears couldn’t stop falling like i was dying slowly ..niall tried to call but i didn’t answer for i was dying ...