Not His Eyes (Zanvis)

Dreams

Zanes pov

It had been a few months after the Ein incident. I can't get over what I felt like to be under his damn control. I still have nightmares each night. But in my dreams for some reason Travis always saves me. Stupid Travis, I don't know why I even think about him after what he did. He just acted like I didn't exist, suddenly forgot but I know that's bullshit. He must've done it on purpose. But I have other things to worry about instead of him. I haven't left my room since we got back, only to shower or use the bathroom but that's it. Every now and then Garroth comes to give me food or check up on me. Even Laurence stops by. But none of them know what it felt like during that time. There was a gentle knock at my door then the door opened. Garroth held a plate of pancakes and bacon. He placed it on my nightstand. "Zane..how are you doing?" He asked. "Awful as always." I say as I turn over to face him. "Zane...I know what happened must really be hurting you but-" I didn't let him continue. "No! You don't know Garroth! You never dealt with Ein head on. You don't know what it was like!" I turned away from him. "Just, know I'm here for you." He said in a soft spoken tone as he slowly shut my door. What does he know? What does anybody know? I shut my eyes and drifted off praying to forget it all.

"Zane you are nothing." A sinister yet familiar voice called out. "You aren't in control." The voice said again. "Stop! That's not true!" I retaliated. "No one would notice if I had just killed you then and there, at the very least no one would care." They laughed. "Aphmau cares! She's my best friend! I won't listen!" I cried out. "She doesn't love you. Aaron's all she cares for now. You're a thing of the past. Come back to me. Have purpose." The voice said in a convincing and deceiving tone. It was like everything went away and I was cold in that snowy abyss again. Ein stood before me. "You are mine! You can't function without me! Understand?" He asked pulling me to face him. All I could do was smile and nod. Like a pet, or a robot. And just like always arising from the snow fall, was my knight in shining armor, Travis. "Let him go!" He shouted. "You dare step to me demon?" He laughed. "You are nothing to be feared coward you'd be no where without us!" Travis screamed once again. He reached into a bag and pulled out an old black torn up book. Ein looked scared of it, and as Travis read off some pages Ein disappeared. "Zane you know you have to do it." Travis spoke gently. Then I woke up. That same cold sweat as always. I need rest, bet even sleep isn't relaxing. What did I do to deserve this?