A mess. Murphy was a mess. His thoughts were blending together into one confused daze that took the better of him. He couldn't breathe, he couldn't remember how to do it. He felt dizzy, his breathing was rapid as he tried to pull himself out of the booth and get out of the restaurant to escape the prison that was his mind. He needed fresh air, maybe then he'd come to his senses and realise that this was all some kind of twisted dream. All the craziness in his head was interrupted when he finally got to the door, thinking he'd wake up by the cold air only to realise that it would hit him like a wall and he collapsed on the ground, in front of a red, shiny car. Alice followed him to the ground quickly and tried to wake him up. He didn't respond to her touch so she told the nearest person to grab a bucket of water. A guy in a blue coat went in and grabbed it for her. Returning, she took the bucket, and in one smooth movement she poured all of the cold liquid in it over Murphy's head. She knew it was a bad idea but she couldn't just leave him on the pavement and wait for him to wake up by himself. As she thought, Murphy's eyes shut open and he started shaking. The chock of the water made him incapable of telling Alice to fuck off, which he in his head had told her a million times over when he realised she was responsible for the chock.
"Come on, big guy. Let's get you inside before you freeze to death." She said and helped him up from the ground.
Once he was calmed down, Alice brought him a cup of warm water and milk for Murphy to drink. His thoughts made their way back and started messing with him the second he once again processed what he'd previously been told.
Bellamy was alive.
No, that could not be true. It was just a sick prank someone pulled on him for their own amusement.
Alice watched the pale boy in front of her slowly coming back to realisation of what just had happened.
"Hey... It's okay." She tried to calm him down and reached her hand out to him. He denied the connection and pulled his own down to his lap.
"Fuck off, Alice. Why? Why would you even say something like that?" His voice was quiet as he expressed his feelings of betrayal. He thought she was his friend.
"Murphy, what on earth are you talking about?" She couldn't hide the fact that she was hurt by his hostile tone.
"What am I talking about? You're the one who told me Bellamy was alive!" A moment of silence passed.
"Alice..." He tried, immediately regretting his rude voice.
"Honestly, Murphy if you think that I would ever pull something like that on you, you're not as smart as I thought you were. You're my friend, and so is Bellamy. I don't.. I'd never..."
"Shit, Alice." Murphy held a firm grasp on the mug.
"Shit." She said in agreement. She was still confused as to why Murphy was so sure of Bellamy's apparent death, but she decided to leave it and not press Murphy on any details.
"But how- I mean when did he come here? Why wouldn't he try and contact me on my phone or something?"
"Well, I'm not sure but if it were me who'd gone away while the other one thought I was dead, I'd try and find the person instead of calling them. Being alive seems like something you'd wanna tell them face to face." Alice said, ending with a sigh.
"You're probably right. Sorry for yelling at you." He said in a shy voice.
"No worries."
The wreck that once was John Murphy left the restaurant and made his way home. Streets he'd traveled on a thousand times before seemed longer than ever and he longed for the moment he'd arrive at the small apartment that once belonged to a happy couple. Exhausted, he started to undress and went to bed in his empty flat. Twisting and turning made it impossible for his mind to drift of into the beautiful unconsciousness people call sleep. Finally falling asleep, his last thought was of his lover's lips.
Okay I hope you enjoyed this haha. I've no real reason for why my updates are so irregular other than my own mess of a mind. I'm sawryyyyy.
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