Perfection|| BTS fanfic

Chapter 1|| Regret

"How are You ?" The therapist asked like Every Time Yoongi Walked into this plain White room: white walls, white carpet with a few stains that won't go away and a boring white couch, on which yoongi sits. The only colour in this damn room are the portraits of happy people with 'cheering up' quotes, like 'it's just a bad day, not a bad life' or 'keep going' and obviously the pictures are surrounded by a BORING white frame.

"Yoongi? How are you?" The doctor repeated her question, because yoongi didn't answer. Others would see a happy young woman, but yoongi can see right through that fake smile and sees a woman, stressed and done with the daily life of listening to the problems of dozens of patients. Who can blame her? She spents her life with listening, without being listened to.

"I'm still the same as the last time you asked, mrs. Lee" yoongi replied saltily, while changing his position on the couch so that he is lying on his back , facing the, who would have guessed it, white ceiling.

The doc let out a annoyed, yet still calm, sigh before she continued. "How was your day?"

"Just got a lot worse than it already was." Yoongi replied in an instant, watching mrs lees eyebrow twitch with annoyance.

"Yoongi please..." She flashed him a relaxing smile, 'FAKE. 'Yoongi thought 'it's all fake'

"I've been at a fansign this morning and chilled with the boys. It actually has been a pretty calm day, but fansign always ruines my mood." Yoongi told her, while replaying everything in his head.

"Anything special today, yoongi?" She asked after scribbling something on the plain white piece of paper in front of her in a hurry.

"At the fansign, jungkook has been unusually calm. He only answered the fans questions in very short sentences and didn't spoke much in generell. I think he's falling into regret, just like I did... But he's still so young... And innocent... I don't want him to lose his light..." Yoongi shifted his gaze towards the doctor, who had a sad look on her face. 'Not fake' yoongi surprisingly notices, but her expression changes into an emotionless one in seconds.

"How do you feel about him changing?" The doc kept writing down, what yoongi thought were notes about the stuff he says.

"I don't really know...I mean, I care about him... I don't want him to regret his decisions... But maybe It's already too late, maybe I can't help him anymore. This Fame can kill you...or at least your happiness. I already miss the old jungkook, always happy and very childish" yoongi let out a small chuckle as he remembered a few moments he had with the younger boy.

"So how are your feelings, yoongi?" The woman looked up from the paper and tried her best to keep her neutral expression and voice, while shifting in her white leather chair.

"I...I'm...scared." Yoongi closed his eyes and fiddled with the rim of his shirt, thinking. "I'm scared of what will happen...what if he'll never be the same? What if I'll never see him smile again?... What if tae, jimin and hoseok will follow this path too?" His eyes fluttered open at his last statement, he couldn't imagine BTS without the living balls of sunshine. "It's already bad enough that the hyungline has insecureties and depression... This fame is a curse."

"Yoongi, tell me, what will you do ?" Silence. Suddenly yoongi got up and grabbed his backpack from the floor and turned towards the door, eager to leave this boring white room, full of nothings and useless advice. He's going to go mad if he stays in this god damn room full of lies.

"Our time is over, I'll be going. Goodbye, mrs Lee." The boy walked with huge steps towards the escape, but  before he could turn the knob he heard his doctor say one last sentence.

"Oh, I hope you'll have a nice day yoongi." Yoongi didn't move for quite a while, until he finally grabbed the knob and thought...

"Fake"

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Heyo~ I hope you enjoyed this chapter and don't worry I'll keep updating (I'm doing my best :/)

Also I think this story will have around 10 chapters and maybe some specials ^~^

*cough* I'm also writing OneShots, you should check them out while I write Chapter 2 of this  *cough*

Author-nim out (^~^)//