Perfection|| BTS fanfic

Chapter 7||Sorry

WARNING: this chapter contains mention of homosexual Love ( just romantic) if you have a problem with this then please skip to chapter 8. and don't comment saying that this is in any way wrong or disgusting. Don't like? Don't read.

For the others: have fun reading ^^

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He could hear shuffling in the room next to his, jins room. And someone walks along the hallway in hurried steps.

It's over now. Nothing will be like before.

The door to my room swang open harshly, making shrink together even more and start sobbing.

Why did I even thought it would be ok? Jin hyung would never understand.

"N-Namjoon?" I could hear Jin hyung call my name calmly, I let go of my tears and hid my face deeper in my arms which were lying on top of my bended knees.

"Joonie, a-are you ok?"

I'm fucking crying, of course I'm not ok! I thought, but actual words did not leave my mouth.

My own sobbing was so loud in my ears that I didn't even hear him walking towards my bed until i felt the bed give in caused by a weight sitting on top, aka Kim Seokjin.

"Joonie... Please..." He was sitting direct next to me as far as I could perceive, his voice making shivers run down my spine. How can one person make me feel so ...in love?

I felt a hand caressing the back of my head, toying with my purple dyed hair.

"A-ren't y-you mad a-at m-e?" My voice was shaking because of my sobs and lightly muffled since I still hid my face, i didn't want anyone to see me, the leader of BTS, like this. Tears streaming down my face like rivers, eyes red and puffy from the crying , bottom lip shaking and letting out those horrible sounds.

"Joon...of course not...I just..."

"I know. you don't like me back. I just wanted to-" i wanted to let everything out, finally lifted my head, not caring what I looked like and that he sees me like this.

"Shut up!" Seokjin interupted me with his head hanging between his shoulders, biting down onto his lip so hard he could nearly draw blood. "Please shut the fuck up!" He barked annoyed, I haven't ever heard jin hyung curse or use such language ever before.

"Hyung...i'm sorry..." I looked as far as I could away from Jin, he seemed really pissed... And it's because of me.

"Hyungs?" A sleepy voice came from the other side of the room, making both of us startled.

"Kookie..." Jin hyung got up and left me there still lightly shaking and some tears running down the side of my face. Seokjin stopped infront of Jungkooks bed and crouched down.

Nobodys POV

"Sorry for waking you, kookie. But can you sleep in my room for the night?" Jin highpitched his voice lightly as he spoke to the youngest, making it sound like he spoke to a little child.

"Hyung? What's happening?" The boy was obviously way too tired to understand anything, but got out of bed anyway.

"It's ok, just go to my room and sleep there." Jungkook nodded and walked towards the exit of the room, tripping on one of the empty food packaging lying around in the process.[same]

Once Jungkook has left the bedroom and Jin got sure that he arrived safely in Jins bedroom Jin went back to the still quietly sobbing leader.

"Ok, Joonie. Let me get this straight." Jin pulled on Namjoons legs so that he was no longer cuddled up with his legs and placed himself on the youngers lap and cupped namjoons face with both of his palms.

"I-I like you a lot ...too" Namjoons eyes widened as he he processed the words  that just came out of his hyungs mouth.

"But... We can't... Joonie..." Jin put his gaze down, not being able to witness how namjoons eyes turned teary again and his whole expression looked so broken.

"I'm s-so sorry, j-joonie... I... " Jin let go of Namjoons face and scrunched his face up in frustration.

"I'm so f-fucking sorry..." By now tears were streaming down both boys faces, making it hard for them to clearly see eachother.

"H-hyung... C-an't w-we date i-in
se-cret?" Namjoon asked while trying his best to not wake the boy in the room next to them with his loud sobs.

"Joon... They would find out at one point..." Jin replied after he was pulled closer by the tall boy, Namjoon was holding his hyung as close as humanly possible by now , his arms wrapped around Jins waist and caressing him as if it was their last hug...

"I'm so sorry, hyung. I... I should have kept it for myself... It's j-just that Mrs Lee told m-me that it w-would be better if I told you."

"She is right though..." Jin took Namjoons face back in his hands and caressed the younger males cheeks gently and lovingly.

"Hm?"

"Now I know. And even though it will probably never work, I now know that I didn't fell in love with you for nothing." Jin smiled sadly at his love and leaned in, kissing him softly on his forehead like a mother would do to her child.

"I'm sorry, Joonie. But I guess we'll have to act like this never happened...for our own sake." Jin said looking all teary again, giving Namjoon one more hug before climbing off of him and walking towards Jungkooks bed.

"Hyung?" Namjoon called for the elder one more time.

"Yes?" Jin answered as he got comfy under jungkooks fluffy blanket, which had a iron man print on it.

"G-goodnight... And ...

I'm sorry"

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Hello my name is Lil and I nearly cried while writing this T~T

Holiday archivements:
-went parasailing
-visited nationalpark
(Everyone took pics of the mountains... Except for me... I took pictures of fish.  :3)
-was on a boat for 5 hours straight

~Lil