About You

sorry

Im sorry for being selfish all this while,
Feeling concerned about how hurt i am till forgot that someone else also have the same feeling.

Im sorry if this misunderstanding just make a relationship goes unstable,
The faults in protecting ourselves till forgot that we protect the false one.

Im sorry in showing most of the saddest part in every matters,
Till i forgot that we once created unmeasureable moments to be remember in the future,

Im sorry if this promises were never meant to be kept,
Because sometimes or everytime i change the feelings of this presence.

Im sorry if i make almost every stupid actions in order to makes u comfortable,
But ended up makes this relationship goes crush and lost on how to return to the original shape.

Im sorry if i just did something that may causes our relationship couldn't stay longer,
But if it not to make u happy for that one fucking day, i swear i will never have an intention to do that.

Im sorry if my existence just mess up your life,
But if i know i was live just to make one heart of my ones i love to get hurt, i should just kill myself when i was at two.

Im sorry if regret was the great option to be choose,
Because yes, it was the actions that suit me well at that time to heal the disaster situation.

Im sorry if backoff is such the only option to be did,
Because u know? I am always surround with terrified to look at u with someone u wished for, cuz u might never remember me when u have someone else by your side

Im sorry if being like a strangers again was only the way,
Because when we act like normal, we probably hurt all day long just because of remembering the old that will never came back.

So here is the purpose,
I don't want u to get hurt dear beloved person i ever known in my lifetime,
I know that every actions i took just go wrong all the time,
But i want u to know if i purposely hurt u, why should i be writing this and move on is never be an option to be choose.

Im sorry again but to show how much care, awareness and loves i had been given to you is not either my choice,
If that was intentionally being told, just know that i may made a biggest mistake in my lifetime.

So here let the silent speak those care, awareness, and loves,
Let u feel them with your heart itself,
Because perhaps when we die, both will be prepared to stay without remembering over each other.

P/s:aiyeer humanity rant in progress,writing bout love brought too much sentimental tsktsk :')