My dad has never been there
He may have tried
Many times...
But you, you were there
At least for awhile
You'd take me out in your expensive car
You'd buy me things and make me happy
You'd do things my dad never had the money for
My dad was in jail
You were there
But then one night, that night
You were drunk,
You asked for a hug and I said no.
You lashed out
At my mom.
There were screens,
Broken glass,
And blood.
I remember it all
I tried to run upstairs to her
You screamed from the top of the steps
"It's all your fault, see this? It's because of you"
That night still haunts me
Those words "it's all your fault"
Repeating in my head
Reminding me of my faults
Now I'm afraid of the smell of alcohol
You made me afraid of fireworks
We were just playing around,
You were throwing them at me and my sister
We would run from them,
We were all joking around
Till I asked you to stop.
You didn't.
I stepped on one,
It burned my foot
I now hate fire works.
But now, years later
You're the one there,
My dad will go missing for days
Doing drugs.
You care
You care enough to have a stable job
To have a stable household
To have a functional car
And to not do the the same things you used to
My dad doesn't.
So even though you've hurt me in ways I'll never forget
So has my dad,
But you,
At least care enough to get better
So thank you for being there
More than my biological father.
-c.j
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-Words from me-
AcakBasically I'm going to try and write in this as often as possible. It will be filled with poems or whatever you'd like to call them. Hope you enjoy
