-Words from me-

My attempt

I was so tired.
I'd been going on for months on empty.
No one would've seen this coming
What I was about to do.
I went downstairs and grabbed the unopened pack of night quill off the counter and walked to the bathroom.
With shaky hands I set it down and thought
"Was this really what would fix it"
I doubted everything for a moment.
But then I remembered
Everything flooded in and it felt like I went on auto pilot
I ran some water and punched out all the pills
I gulped a few down at a time
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A few moments later the panic set in
I bent down and stuck my fingers down my throat
My gag reflex wasn't working..
Nothing would come up
I gulped down more water and tried again
Reluctantly they came up
I did this multiple times.
To make sure it was all gone
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I grab my phone and see that my friend
Had called poison control and my grandmother
My heart stopped
This friend was the reason I did this
And now everyone knew what I'd done
My grandma didn't take me to a hospital no;
She thought it was just me doing drugs
Little did she know I wanted so bad to die.
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God the next day was the worst.
I was so sore.
I lied to the counselor
Said I didn't take much
She believed me.
No one knew what I did till months later.
Now I guess everyone knows.