Stories from an awkward child

Ranting is fun

I thought my mom was gonna have to go to Hospital because it hurt to breathe. That's that.

Then I took my cat who is my form of therapy, and I was just sitting there and she attacked me and I cried more. I want to get better but it's hard. Like really hard.

And I work really hard to try to make progress but nothing I've tried has worked. I feel empty. Almost a numb feeling. My mom said she feels better but I think she's lying and I'm scared.

I try so hard to stay strong but I think I'm breaking and I just can't and don't wanna do it. But I can't die. I have people who hold onto me like I was the last thing they'll ever know.

I have to hold on.  I will hold on. I'm so tired.

I'm sad and lonely.  I feel unloved by my dad. All I have left is you people reading this.  Please don't leave me. I can't afford to lose myself. I wanna die but I know I can stay.

I know there are people who need me and I need them.

I might just go play the g note and cry more.

Please don't leave me. I love you all. I care about you so much.