I wanna die

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I can't live the way I am anymore. No matter what I do it's always wrong. I tried to stay around but I don't know if I can't. I just can't get happy anymore. And I can't stand it. I tried to listen to certain songs that make me feel hope but I only feel numb now. Like someone broke my whole body and I can't feel anything. My mom came back for 1 day. She left again.

Emotionally I am unstable and depressed. I can barely breathe anymore. The air is thin. I'm losing myself. Slowly. But surely you can get better right? I'm not sure. I am always crying over nothing and my only source of happiness and attention is probably asleep. I miss my source of happiness.

I miss the sun to my moon. I miss the light to my darkness. I miss my cat too but that's not important. I hate to be alone. But I feel it everyday. And right now I'm shaking because everybody pretends to feel sorry for me. No one is sorry for me. Everyone wishes I was dead.

Someone else deserves to live. Not me. I deserve nothing but pain. I have no will to live. So maybe I'll just die. And leave a few pictures

 And leave a few pictures

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That's not me

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That's not me

Fake smiles ^^^^

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Fake smiles ^^^^

Fake smiles ^^^^

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I'm sorry

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I'm sorry

Goodbye

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