Memoirs

Departure

Drunken sex is usually pretty fun, especially those short one night stands. But this one was one of those nights that I wouldn't forget, after all this incident is stitched onto my reputation which isn't received so well towards the media. One moment it's just Murdoc and I, fucking each other like rabbits in some foul smelling cubicle while we're both drunk off our arses. I guess that was his idea of "intimacy", but I'd hate to admit that it was one of the best shags I've had in a while. Then the next was Murdoc getting his nose punched in by Russel whilst I hurrily pulled up my skirt and fix my hair.

"Did you honestly think you two we're gonna get away with this?!!! The poor kid considers both of you as close friends to him and this is what you give back to him?!"

Murdoc tries to wipe the blood off his nose and curses at himself. "I.." He sighed to himself, and held his nose to stop the bleeding.

"You know what..we're going to talk about this later, you need to get to the hospital." Russel helps Murdoc out, and holds his nose towards the air.

"And you..Paula you're coming too and get yourself together."

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I fixed myself up, and went upstairs to get in the car with the others. Russel and Murdoc sat in the front, whilst Stuart and I sat in the back awkwardly. He refused to acknowledge me, and just stared out the window.

"Stu.."

"Don't talk to me right now Paula, I don't want to hear it." He replied sternly.

The ride to the hospital was silent, and no one wanted to look at each other. We arrived to the hospital and waiting for Murdoc while he was in the ER. Russel went off earlier to get some snacks from the vending machine and Stuart sat a few seats apart from each other.

"I thought you wanted to work things out between us, isn't that what you wanted?"

I clutched my head, shaking off the drunken haze that I was recovering from. "Stu.. I do, I mean we still ca-"

"How?" He furrowed his brows and sneered at me. "You go out and shag my best friend? I mean, I'm pissed at him too luv but you and I known each other for a while and I thought you'd never do this to me.."

"....First of all, he's not your "best friend". He rammed you with his damned car and he barely has any remorse for it at all! You actually think he's a friend?! For fuck's sake Stuart, he's in his 30s and all he ever does is screw things up!" I raised my voice slightly, earning the attention from others in the waiting room.

"...Christ, let's just talk outside" I sighed and we walked together out to the front of the hospital.

"As I was saying, are you kidding me Stuart?"

"Paula, he saved my life, gave me a home and a great opportunity for us. I owe him for that."

I scoffed in response, like I actually couldn't believe that this is what he thought.

"God Stu, this is unbelievable.." I shook my head and laughed.

"You're unbelievable Paula, it's like you want shit to work out between us and this other sappy stuff. And all you do is steal my pills, drink, party, and just drown yourself in dop-"

"You're saying all of this, but your mother still provides you with this bloody endless supply of painkillers mate! Stuart your whole life now is dependent on Murdoc and these damned pills! I get that this is something you want to do, but  do you really think that this shit is worth it?!"

"They're mainly for headaches! I can't help getting migraines every minute love! ...You know what? Never mind, when we get back to Kong just pack your shit."

We stood there, glaring at each other and sitting on the steps. Some moments later, Russel and Murdoc walked outside from the hospital; "Let's get back home." Russel said, helping Murdoc into the car.

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We arrived back at Kong, and I went into my room to pack my stuff. I gave my Nan a call and told her that I wanted to stay with her for a bit, but I didn't go into detail about what occurred. There was a knock on my door, and Russel ended up coming in.

"I don't think it's best for you to stay in the band anymore Paula. You really need to get your shit together and things are clearly not going to work out."

"Well, clearly my bags are packed so it's whatever. It was nice meeting you though Russel, I think you're the only sane person in this bunch."

"..I guess you could say that.."

I gathered my things, and headed towards the front. I called for a cab, and packed everything in there. Stuart was just staring down while sitting on the steps, and Murdoc was standing above him.

"Good luck Stu.. It's not going to last for long."

"Oh sod off already Paula, he'll be fine..right? We're find a better guitar with much dedication and talent!"

Stuart gave no reply, and ended up going back into the building.

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I went back to my Nan's place, and she hugged me. She asked if I was alright and said that I looked ill or something. But I shook it off and told her that I was fine; I didn't wanna talk to her about what happened so I went into my old room and unpacked. I cursed at myself when I remembered that I left my purse in the cubicle.

"Damn it."