hello i guess..
I havent been here in a while.
Main reason is that i've been feeling a lot better lately.
To keep it short, i went to a place, to get help. Im still there, but by next month i'll be out.
Anyway,
There's Something thats been eating away at me.
I feel like im losing everyone.
I dont know if its because im in that place now, or...if im just shit..
There is this person in my life, my best friend which ive known a long time..
Now you see, thats great, right?
Tho, the friends i also had..are starting to leave..
They were and or are important people to me. If it werent for them, i honestly dont know where i would be.
They saved me.
These two people have a complucated realtionship, which at one point, i also was involved in...
And.. these people dont like..my best friend.
Thats normal, and thats also okay. Its just..
They tell me that im blind.
That i dont 'see' her. Metaphoricly.
I dont know..
They dont know her like i do.
I dont know if these 2 people wanna break contact with me, or just... 'still be there but not really as friends but as..bystanders....'?
In this past year.. i have made a lotta memories with them. Good ones, and bad ones...
Yeah..
Idk what else to say to that..
I just feel.. kinda lost..
Idk what to do...
But im alright.
I dont need many friends, dont get me wrong.. but the group that we had.. is is just kinda.. falling apart.
If thats whats supposed to happen, im okay with that.
sigh.
Sorry that this is so.. scattred.. all over the place...
I just wondered.. why would anyone wanna read this shit?
Im not putting it on because i want attention, or i dont fucking know...
I just wanted it down somewhere. Out of my system, out of my mind for a moment.
Yea...
Thats all i have to say for now.
YOU ARE READING
midnight thoughts
Non-Fictionme, being a bored piece of shit, wanting to put her thoughts and ideas out to the world. thats what im doing here. telling my story - maybe just the beginning - maybe just the start. maybe its interessting to read whats going on in the mind of a per...
