Hello there again..
I havent written in this for a rather long time. Once again.
Well anyways, here i am, with another shitty chapter.
Who even reads this shit.
Yea..
I cant sleep.
Its been happening a lot lately. Again.
yea..
In the last couple of months i really fucking realized what a power music can have.
I mean... yea, you couls listen to meaningless songs. But why would you do that?
For me, music is something personal, something that shows how the person felt when he/she wrote it.
Im actually thankful (even tho it sounds kinda stupid ik) that these people share or shared they thoughts, ideas, struggles and emotions with us.
It has really helped me through a lot of things in my shot pathetic little life.
i just really like music. It has changed the way i see some things..
Everyone has a different style of expressing themselves- such as music, art etc.- and.. i really like that.
Im sorry im just writing down what comes to my mind...
So
This will probably be all messed up.. and all over the place like always
The worst time of the day for me is
The morning.
Who wouldve thought.
Im not a morning person at all. Have never been and probably never will be.
Its just.. until im finally up and running happy- its the afternoon.
so..
Yea.
Sometimes nights are bad too... when the thoughts keep going around in circles, you keep thinking about life and perpose, the worth of things or yourself, all the things you've ever done wrong.
Thats me at least.
Its not everynight tho..
I dont know what i can do.
Sometimes, most of the time, i just dont know.
I feel like i dont know anything. Like im a stupid kid.
Like im dreaming, trapped in a bubble noone knows how to pop.
i lost my best friend. We kinda broke contact.
She really was important to me.. and somehow still is.
Its better like this. I mean shes better now, and im getting there i think..
I just hope that shes happy. That shes alright. I've pulled her through a lot of shit. And im still sorry for that. I'll probably will still be for a long time...
But hey...
Thats just me, i guess
YOU ARE READING
midnight thoughts
Non-Fictionme, being a bored piece of shit, wanting to put her thoughts and ideas out to the world. thats what im doing here. telling my story - maybe just the beginning - maybe just the start. maybe its interessting to read whats going on in the mind of a per...
