Its been a week since my birthday and I decided to go with Jake, Chance and Anthony to Lamborghini and car show. I got up and got changed into some clothes.
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I grabbed my phone and said goodbye to mi familia and hopped into the Team10 van.
We reached our destination which was this Lambo car show thing. I love cars anything to do with them. When I had the chance to I helped my dad with car repairs in the garage.
After the car show we decided to go the Grove and chill for the remainder of the day. While we were walking down the sidewalk of the outdoor mall a slutty ass girl came up to us and started flirting with Jake and Chance and Anthony. I couldnt let some rotten bag of potatoes ruin Tessa and Erika's marriage and Anthony should stay single the rest of his life. "Hey can I help you" I scoffed, "No Im not talking to you" she says still fantasizing over Chance's eyes. "Scuse me but they are taken" I say, "oh your doing all three of them what a slut" She scoffs, "Bitch you have about 1 second before I put you on the floor" I threaten, "What are you gonna do to me" she says crossing her arms. "Your about to find out" I say before bolting towards her but being stopped by arms that belonged to Anthony. "Woah there Tiger rotten meat is not good for you" He says holding me back.
I pushed him off and grabbed this whore by her dirty blonde hair. She threw the first punch so technically Im the victim. It didnt hurt that bad but it was gonna leave a shiner. The hand throwing went one for about 6 more punches before Jake pulls me off of her. If he wasnt there I probably would have killed her. I looked like a mess, my hair was in tangled knots, my left eye was turning blue, I busted open the scars on knees.
I didnt say a word for the whole car ride home. I was absolutely pissed off. I havent got into a physical fist fight since Freshman Year of High School. But lets not talk about that dark, dark day.
I bursted my way through the front door and marched my way up to my room and slamming the door behind me locking it. I was so mad that I wanted to break everything in my possession. I was having a panic attack. I was pulling at my hair, I was gritting my teeth, I couldnt contain myself anymore.
I heard multiple knocks at my locked door but kept pacing. Finally the door was bursted open and the whole squad was staring at my destroyed self. "Go away" I said gritting my teeth. "We cant just do that Kaine" Erika said, "I said Go Away I dont like repeating myself" I said angrily. They all backed away slowly knowing what I was capable of if they didnt listen to me. I didnt want them to leave but my anger shot over me and just blocked them out.
I barricaded myself in my room and looked at pretty much nothing. I was mad at myself for letting my anger get the best of me. I just wanted someone to talk to.
I slowly made my way down the steps and into the kitchen. I was still really pissed by all the actions made today. So any interference by anyone I could burst again. I walked past everyone and grabbed a water bottle from the fridge. Ivan came following me. "Kaine are you ok" he said. Instead of answering his question like I wanted to, the anger that was still in me took over. I picked up a book that was sitting on the counter and threw it at him while I screamed.
I instantly regretted what I did and crouched down on the floor and cried into my knees. How could I let this happen. The imagery from the fight today and the fight 4 years ago came back to my mind. It was all my fault. If I could just control my anger I wouldnt be in this situation. "You were right I am a devil" I say remembering what they said to me back home.
All I was thinking was why did the doctors release me from the Psych Ward. Oh did I tell you that I was put into a mental hospital before being diagnosed with PTSD. The doctors said I was too young to have the disease so they just put me into a mental hospital. I was there for a few months before being truly diagnosed with PTSD. But the doctors made a huge mistake releasing me. I was a devil I wasnt the angel everybody thought I was.
