up and out

~Forgiveness & Truth

**Damien, Michelle husband in the media**

Nate

A week later...

I woke up noticing Ari wasn't in bed anymore so I got up in search for her...
Everything that went down last week at the baby shower had her really distant not just to me but everyone who was there...

I know it was because of shayla troublesome ass come  saying  she ain't sorry for what happened to Avarie && all that stupid shit ..

Once i made it downstairs..I noticed a small framed figure sitting by the glass doors leading onto the patio..I walked towards her trying not to make as much noise.

Squatting down In front of  her I rested a hand on her thigh and my head on her stomach listening in on lil adains movements. "Babe why you out here?" knocking her out her thought's

She smiled weakly resting her hand on the back of my head as a tears threatened to fall from her eyes..I could tell she was crying before I even came down here from the stains on her shirt.

Steady lookin through the glass doors she shrugged ..."Did I ever tell you about my child hood?" She asked almost in a whisper and I  shook my head No

" My mom never knew who my dad was and always treated me less of a child like I wasn't hers or A mistake. She even told me she should've had an abortion with me before she died...She would always give all her time and attention to Avarie like he was a a gift to the world,basically worshiped the ground he walked but when it came to Ya'hari there wasn't ever any love I would always find ways to spend time with her and get the love she would give him not only her but my grandmother I wasn't allowed to stay the nights because my mother brainwashed her into thinking I wasn't her granddaughter "I could tell This was hard for her but she continued

"my mom had been gone for about 3..4 hours and came back with groceries. We were supposed to go out into the car and bring them all back in so she could start dinner. Since I always wanted to be better and compete with him I took more bags than I could handle."

"Our home had little steps that lead up to the front door,I was running back & forth trying to get more than him and on the way back into the house i dropped the paper bag full of carton of eggs. Av' was already in the kitchen placing his bags down to come get the last one as he turned the corner my mom was coming down the stairs once she saw what I had done there was no explanation I could give her that wouldn't get my ass beat that night.." She stopped shaking her head

"I never told him why I did stupid things like this but I'm sure he had a clue"

"I remembered on Valentines I spent all my whole savings of coins I would find around the playground and other places. I went out on my little bike to buy her a empty card and fake flowers and I even had enough to buy her favorite chocolate.. The Little turtles" she sniffled as a tear fell

"I got back home waiting for her to show up while Av' played on his game in the back room...I layed it out beginning to write in the card..hours passed and she still hadn't shown so I went up stairs to my room falling asleep..I was awaken by the cheerful sound of her voice and her thanking avarie..I got to middle of the stairs and she was saying oh I love my son he cares so much about me he even went out to buy me valentines gifts..but that little ungrateful brat ass daughter of mines couldn't..it hurt me so bad that she would say something like that && I could hear him trying to tell her it wasn't him"

"No one ever cared for me like I wanted them to,I was only 5  years old lookin for the love and affection I seen the other kids moms show to them .never even given a simple I love you or hug" ya'hari broke down into tears