Hinata sighed as she flipped through one of her notebooks. All she wanted to do was sink into oblivion, into every word that she had written. What Neji had told her just a couple of hours ago had thrown her off hard. She felt as if the world she knew had shattered. Though she knew she was a Hyuuga and that she existed, she had no idea how. She could feel Neji telling the truth when he had said it, they were both Hyuuga there was no way that he could lie to her without her noticing.
Tenten gently knocked on the wooden door that led into the room Hinata was staying in, "Do you mind if we talk or do you want to be left alone for a little bit?" she asked Hinata. They had walked home even though Kiba had told them to wait so he could pick them up but after the incident, Neji and Tenten knew that it was right for them to take her home and as far away from the hospital as possible. But the young female hadn't spoken a word to them ever since they had gotten back. Instead she had closed herself into Kiba's room without accepting an ounce of food.
The purple haired female sighed and nodded. Tenten smiled as she walked over to Hinata and sat down on Kiba's bed, "I know what happened at the hospital probably took a toll on your mind and body. But are you really going to give up on seeing your sister?" asked Tenten. Her words were soft like a fresh blanket of snow trying to cover the heat of the earth. Almost like ice trying to numb the burning pain. Hinata locked eyes with Tenten, trying to find anything she could possibly find, anything to throw the conversation off in another direction but she knew that Tenten wouldn't budge.
Hinata slowly stood up and walked to the door where she found Neji leaning against the wall, "It's fine for you to come in. We're both guests in this home and I know you know things about me that I might not know about myself, so if you're willing to join this conversation. I have some questions." her voice was stoic but Neji knew that her mind was like a hurricane. It was bustling around, throwing things around, trying to find anything that made any sense in her life anymore but found nothing.
Neji nodded as Hinata moved to the side and allowed him to step inside. The brown haired male leaned against the wall and crossed his arms as Hinata sat back down in the seat she had been sitting in, "I was happy when my sister was born but my mother died for it. For the longest time I was angry at my sister, I thought that it was her fault that my mother died. Over and over again, my father tried to tell me that it was something that was going to happen to my mother whether she had my sister or not but I knew he just wanted me to love Hanabi. And I bought it. I wanted anything to sooth the pain of losing my mother, even if it meant loving the thing that killed her."
Tenten and Neji stayed silent. They always saw Hinata as a loving older sister but they also knew that she was girl that was damaged and bruised. "My father loved Hanabi from the get go. He named her Hanabi because it was like fireworks lit up inside of him when she was born. When we were growing up, I already had expectations set for me as the first child. I was expected to know how to clean, cook, be the top of my class, and be a Hyuuga so my father never praised me like my mother did. But my sister got everything she ever wanted, even the praise from my father that I could never have. I pushed it all away. To her eyes I was the older sister that cared for her."
"When she dropped into a coma, that was the first time I noticed that I actually loved her. How could I actually hate the person that my mother gave her life for? So I took care of her instead of the maids. I did everything yet my father never said a single word of praise or thanks to me. Everything I did from then on was for my sister. When Naruto came along, I knew something was different about him. I fell in love for the first time in my life. I thought that I could finally direct something in my life to another direction but now I just don't know. All my life I thought that I would find happiness after finally getting recognition and praise from my dad but I found it in someone else."
