Stay With Me

Chapter 13

Lauren's Pov

I got better but not in terms of my heartbreak but my health. I still didn't want to go to school, I still didn't want to face the world especially her, my love, Camila.

Over the weekend I practiced multiple ways in which I would ignore her. Still, I did not want to do that, I wanted nothing but to hold her in my arms and tell her it will be okay and we will fight against all odds. But, I love her enough to let her go even if it kills me inside.

Monday came pretty quickly than how I anticipated. Why? I had her class.

It was time. Time for my punishment. I made sure I sat at the back of the class so I could have time to admire my teacher without anyone noticing.

The duration of the class felt longer than I had hoped. She kept eyeing me with every chance she got, and when Camila realized I caught her staring she ducked her head. I felt relieved to see that she had some sort of feelings for me.

Oh God, why me?

The bell rang loudly signaling that school has ended. I got up swiftly trying to ditch her.

"Lauren, can I talk to you for a minute?" She asked shyly. I nodded and waited until the class was empty. "Laur" I turned away but she held onto me. I tried to resist feeling light headed but I couldn't, even my knees felt weak.

"Ms. Cabello if this is not pertaining to school can I please go?" I said a little too harsh and she flinched. Instantly I felt the need to apologize but I kept my cool.

"I don't want us to not be friends. Please talk to me. I...uh need you in my life. I know it's hard but try to understand" she said sadly looking up through her lashes. Instantly I felt my heart flutter in my chest but I kept my composure, I did not want to give in. I could feel myself getting upset again and I think she felt my anger too.

"How can you be friends with someone you love? I know it's selfish but I can't do that to myself. I need to come to terms with not being able to call you mine first until then I will keep my distance" I said angrily and stomped my way out of the classroom leaving her dumbfounded.

I drove around for hours with no destination in mind. Just wanted to release my anger. How could she ask me to be her friend? Thinking about it only angered me more. I didn't realize how late it was, checked my phone I had 52 missed calls and 12 text messages. Some were from my best friends and also my parents.

Mom ran towards me with a worried expression. I hugged her and told her I just needed a little air and got carried away. She saw that I didn't want to talk so she let it go.

All night long I tossed and turned in bed, couldn't sleep. This is what she does to me. Camila is haunting my thoughts and I couldn't help but feel bittersweet about the entire situation. I was up until dawn, sketching out a plan.