Why did I think that I could ever trust you when all you did was break my heart and lie about how much you loved me.
I gave you forgiveness so many times that I just stopped counting.
I guess you could say you had a hold over me.
And I'm ashamed that I let myself get to this point of ruin. I don't know what to do anymore.
to be honest I always knew you wouldn't be able to love me, I was a being of destruction spiraling myself into a dark hole of nothingness.
Sometimes I blame my depression for you leaving. It stopped me from being what you wanted me to be and what I wanted myself to be.
Even then you took advantage of my brokenness and acted like I was yours to fix.
That's why I'm torn between wishing you'd come back and hoping I never see your face again.
~ Ava
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Recurring ~ Calfreezy fan fic
Fanfiction" you were like a recurring dream I couldn't escape from."
