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Chapter 25 | Project Sleep With Me

Time seemed to slow down when you're falling.

Falling was easy. I only needed to let go and gravity did the rest.

The world rushed by in a blur and I knew the pain was coming. It went by fast, yet slow, almost suspended.

Then impact. I felt my bones move in a way that they shouldn't, jangled. Without looking I knew there was blood seeping from skin that seconds ago was smooth.

I didn't move - anything to delay the part where I took in what I looked like now. Torn and dirty skin, reddened, weeping.

I wanted to scream in pain, but nothing came out. It seemed like my whole life flashed before my eyes and I couldn't do anything about it.

I felt someone shaking me. "Alex, are you okay?!"

I couldn't breathe, I found it hard to breath and it felt like I was finally giving up.

I was in a trance that I couldn't wake up from a bad nightmare that wouldn't let me wake up.

I felt someone jerking me forward and shook me violently. I blinked my eyes and was met with Mackenzie dull brown eyes, her eye shown with an emotion.

She was afraid, terrified but of what?

"What happened?" I slowly asked as I tried remembering what happened but I came out blank.

"You froze and wouldn't snap out of it."

"Why did I froze? What did you do to me?" I repeatedly blinked my eyes. My heart pounded against my chest as if it wanted to escape my body.

"I touched your shoulders and pushed you forward." She held me in position as I stumbled away from her

"You tried to kill me!" I was mad. She was trying to kill me. She wanted to kill me. I didn't want to die anymore. I was finally feeling better.

I held my head as I began to feel a bit dizzy. I needed to seat down. No, I needed my pills. That would help me.

"N-no, I was only playing a game. I wasn't going to make you fall, I wouldn't do that to you." She looked at me with a strangled expression. "I was playing around Alex and then you froze and wouldn't snap out of it."

Alex, get away from there. Don't do it.

I blinked back the tears that swam in my eyes. "I don't ever want to see you again." I swallowed back the tears.

She grabbed my arm before I left for the door. "I didn't mean it. Are you okay?"

I was never going to be okay, I knew that, my parents knew that.

"Just leave me alone Mackenzie."

I tried to withdraw my arm from her fingers but she wouldn't let me go. "I swear to God, Mackenzie, if you do not let me go I will smack you all the way back to juvenile. Where you belong,"

She harshly pushed me back. "I am so sorry Alex!" She yelled, walking towards the door. Before she slammed it shut she whispered, "If I had known that you previously jumped off a building before Alex, I wouldn't have attempted that joke." I wanted to deny it. Deny that I was never weak enough to end my life by jumping off a building once. "I know that look Alex," she said as she walked out that door.

Tears creased down my face as I watched everything pass by my eyes - memories I wanted to forget and bury deep away so that no one could know. Yet, they always had a way of resurfacing.

Alex, you need help.

This is your last chance, you won't be so lucky next time.

If you won't do it for yourself do it for him.