Bloom.

created me

i think i am ignoring a part of me that 

demands

       to be felt

it is deep inside me and I need to

take off

the layers of hurt i have buried it under

my heart demands to be loved

     and my family is too busy

     and my best friends hide theirs hearts

     and i choose to refuse my creator

     and i think i am most loved when my

               tits

      are complimented on the daily

so I spend my money on you

                                             for you

i give up my heart

                  my sanity

                  my happy

                        for you.

but you will never see me through

the filter

i chose on Instagram

because you are not a piece in my

puzzle

   but my mind so desperately wants you 

to be.

but that is simply not how He

created me.